Hamesha and Forever - Sidnaaz

Chapter 19

"No No No! Please no Sidharth" she kept mumbling urgently As he held her from her shoulders, keeping her from falling.
"Away....away! Door reh!" He hissed, pulling back his hands.
She tried to wrap her arms around his neck but he pushed them away.
"no Sidharth no! No!"
"Meine maan Liya okay? Theek hai? Le Liya decesion. Stay the fuck away from me! Stay away! Apna moun mat dikhana. Khush reh ab! Mein bohot bura Hoon na? Hai na? Ab tu khush re! Don't ever talk to me again!" he gnashed his teeth, sitting back on the sofa.
His eyes were red, veins popping at his temples and neck. He put his head in his hands, fingers gripping his hair, his elbow on his knees
"Please Sidharth! Sorry! Sorry! Sidharth sorry!" Her tears leaked without a stop as she knelt down in front of him, between his legs, looking up at his face.
She gasped, horrifically.
Tears streamed down his red face.
"sidharth?" She whispered, gasping.

A car honked outside and her phone started ringing.......Shehbaaz.

"Go!" he growled, bringing his face near to hers, eyes in her eyes.
"Go the fuck away Shehnaaz!"
Her heart broke for him.
"nhi jaungi! Sidharth promise! Promise! Pakka promise!" She held his face in her hands, nose touching his face that hovered above her.
His tear fell on her face.
He closed his eyes.

Shehbaaz honked again.

"Sidharth! Please.....please" she whispered, caressing the side of his face.

What could he do infront of her? What say he had on himself in front of her? She rendered him powerless on his own fucking self!

"tu promise tor deti hai Shehnaaz. Constantly, constantly is fear mein rakhti hai kab tu chali jaye gi! Big boss mein it was easy, there was no where to go! But Do you have any idea how easy it is to ignore each other here?? Tera show khatam, tu chali jaye gi Chandigarh! Phir? Phir baat nahi karey gi? Ya karey gi....ya-"

"Siddharth sorry! Please! Mein nahi jaa rhi yaar abhi kahin! Please!" She cried, her fingers moving into his hair and his head fell on her shoulder - surrender, relief.

She remembered how he had rested his head the same way on her shoulder a few days ago, in his car, when she had suggested to never talk again.

Her fingers weaved through his hair, his head on her shoulder.
"Shehbaaz aa gaya hai bahar" he said a moment later

"Hmm" she hummed, not having the energy to think or say or do anything.

"Shehnaaz....." He said, pulling up his head from her shoulder, his hand cupped her cheek, squeezing it.
"Tu theek hai yaar?" His other hand wiped her tears.
"Pata nhi...." Her voice cracked, fresh tears spilling from her eyes.
"Kitna roye gi?" He asked, wiping her face, setting her hair.
"Kuch samajh nhi ata....mujhe bohot darr lagta hai Sidharth...mein- mein bohot thak gayi hoon"
It was like a dagger had been twisted inside his chest.
She was broken. She said.....she said she was scared......Shehnaaz Gill....Shehnaaz Kaur Gill.
And he felt every reasoning leave his body as he pulled her up from between his legs onto his lap, her face shoved into his neck.
"Shehnaaz dar mat! Just some time! I promise to you ..I Promise, sab theek ho jaye ga. Mein karunga! I promise. Just some time? Please, mat dar." He pleaded, hands moving up and down her back and
What could she say? What power did she have over herself In front of him? Especially in front of this pleading, crying Sidharth.
And she knew, that in this moment, if she asked him to confess, maybe he would. In fact, she knew he would. But she didn't want that. Not until he was ready.

"theekay" she whispered, her voice almost inaudible.

"huh?" He pulled her face back, trying to gauge her expression.

"Theek. Hai." She said, smiling a little, but then pressing her lips from one side, rolling her eyes - feigning displeasure.
"Shit....Sahi mein? Are you serious?" He laughed.
He laughed!
"Han kutte! Ab tujhe likh ke doon?"
"Be*****" he laughed, his usual loud cackle.
"Chee gaaliyan kyon de raha hai tu!" She made a face.
"But ab tu mujhe manaye ga aur mere nakhre uthaye ga aur mood swings bardaasht karey ga. Aur meko bohot saari attention de ga!" She told him
"Tu kehti hai toh pankhe se Ulta latak jaon?" He scoffed
"Mein tera moun torr ke na doosre banney laga doon gi! Churailon ke ultey per hotey hein aur tu aisa Bhoot jiss ka Ulta sar hoga! Tujhe koi hero bhi nahi le ga" she punched on his arm
"Moun chahey Ulta laga ho, moun toh Mera ho ga na? Handsome as fuck" he cocked his eyebrows, smirking
"Chee yuck! Moun dekh apna! Handsome? Hahhahaha Taras khaa ke tujhe film aur dramas dete hongey log!" She laughed
Their hearts felt so light. It wasn't paining....after so long!