Hamesha and Forever - Sidnaaz

Chapter 21

"Do minute toh baat kar le yaar!" She groaned
This was irritating her, all of this. Getting on her nerves. She hated fighting with him so much and she, at the same time, hated to pretend like everything was fine when it wasn't.
Couldn't he just listen to her for once?!
"Bol" he said, the car coming to halt.
They had reached the Msk set in film city.
After their verbal spat during rehearsals, they hadn't talked much.
She had tried to strike a conversation once but when he hadn't responded properly, she gave up, too irritated with the heaviness of the situation anyway. The heaviness, the unspoken grudges - she felt them growing, and they weigh her down.
She ached to move into his arms and let him squeeze her into him, she wanted to sob into his shoulder and she wanted him to pacify her, baby her. And at the same time, she wanted to hurt him. Yes, because he was hurting her so much! And he was so nonchalant about everything!
He didn't care, did he?!
However, when he offered to drop her off to film city, she did nothing, and agreed simply.
Driving her to places, taking care of her whereabouts - she realised, were another of his silent gestures....of care? Love?....friendship....well whatever!

But he cried for you! Her brain reminded her.
Toh mein Kya marjoon iss ehsaan taley ben*****! She scoffed right back at it.

"Itna kyon kar raha hai?" She asked

He let go of a gush of air, his head moving back to rest on the headrest.
"This is tiring pata hai Shehnaaz" he mumbled.

"Tire....matlab?"

And he chuckled.
This girl is just.....something else. Bhagwaan Kya soch Kya rha tha isse banatey waqt!

"Forget it.....what were you saying, mein Kya kare raha Hoon?" He asked
"Yehi....ignore kar rhaa hai itna" she complained
"Tu bhi toh kar rhi hai"
"Kyon ke tu kar raha hai....iss Liye kar rhi hoon mein. Same to same" she stated.
His face clouded with confusion. "Tu pata hai Kya bolti hai kabhi kabhi mujhe Kuch samajh nhi ata, sar pe se nikal jata hai!"
"Sidhaaarthh! Meine Jo bola tha uss pe itna kyon react kar raha hai?" She asked again
"Nhi hai react karney vaali Baat? I didn't even do anything aur tu itna sab bol ke chali gayi! Tujhe....you don't know me or the kind of person I am? Mein kyon kisi aur se-"
"Ssss pata hai mujhe! But mein just teko clear kar rhi thi.....I - yaar feel hota hai yaar meko....aur mein bohot jyada possessive hoon teko le ke theekay, toh agar tu kisi aur ko SOCHEY bhi toh mujhe problem hai!" She told him, clear as real.
"Aur tu Shaadi vaaley show mein bethey toh mujhe koi problem nhi hona chahiye? Mujhe bilkul sab Sahi Sahi bolna karna chahiye? Haina? Kyon ke feelings toh sirf Teri hein! Mujhe toh bhagwaan ne khaali matka banaya hai!" He scoffed, his words making her giggle.

Ab in ko bol diya ke apney ko bhi hurt hota hota hai toh mood achha ho gaya, Sala meri band Baja ke rakhi hai!

"Kya hai?! Daant mat nikaal!" He gcoffed
"Mere hein...Meri marzi mein nikaloon, ya na nikaloon" she smiled more widely, showing off her teeth.
"Mukkey maar ke saare daant nikal doon ga"
"Maar ke dikha! Na Mard karoon doon gi tujhe" she cocked her eyebrows, folding her hands on her chest smugly.
"Ab utar gaari se! Mujhe baat nhi karni Tere se!" He said.
"Ae! Abhi toh baat kar raha tha seedhe se!" She gasped, trying to hold his bicep
"N-"
"Sidhaaarthh! Chup kar jaa yaar! Chup kar jaa! Meri baat sun!" She held his bicep to her chest and he sighed in defeat.
"Mein ab uss show ko Chhor toh nhi sakti, but meko Meri mummy ki Kasam Jo mein kisi ke Saath over hui! Sau lagey! TU sab kuch yaar, vi much bhi nhi hai! Lulleu puchey! Bola ha tujhe!" She told him, and and her heart moved seeing a small smile playing at his lips.