Forelsket, Choi Yeonjun

jealousy kills

"It was growing on me, that feeling called jealousy.
I badly want to stop it, but it seems natural to feel it.
I badly want to stop you, but you looked more natural and more you
when you're with her, when you're together.
My self should be selfless, 'cause that's being in love, isn't it?
Yes, i knew that love hurts, but i never knew that jealousy kills."

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Dear Xavion,

Hi, Xav. Aren't you confused on why I'm ignoring you? Or you aren't noticing that I'm ignoring you because you're too busy with her?

haha shítty as this is, I'm freaking jealous.

I haven't felt this for once in my life, maybe a little bit, but this much? Huh. I'm feeling it way too much, it hurts.

But i guess you don't care anymore since you're with her lols.

I'm letting you talk to her, hang out with her, spend time with her, but you're fuckíng abusing my kindness, Xavion. I have my limits.

You have that much time to be with her, when you can't even talk to me now?

Wow. Just wow.

By the way, my step-mom moved me out of the house haha.

I'm staying at my uncle's condo unit since he's out of the country, so he let me stay there.

Where's my safe haven now?

Where's my rest?

Where's my reason to live?

Where's my home?

There.. with my best friend.

I can't help but to think.. did you really love me?

I love you, Xav. But you're making me confused as hell.

- Confused, Celestia.
✧ 09-29-2020