Forelsket, Choi Yeonjun

second chances

"my thoughts was filled of you,
while you're with her.
tears dropped from my eyes,
while you're smiling to her.
but still, even if it's crystal clear
that 'us' don't have a chance,
i'm still hoping that you'll come back
so that i could give you a second chance."

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Dear Xavion,

When i woke up the other day when i suddenly collapsed, i immediately thought of you.

You were the first person that i was searching for when i woke up, but then after seconds of reality, i realized that you were already not by my side.

That you won't be there for me whenever i'll need you, because you already let go, we're already done.

I'm scared, Xav. What if i really have something like an illness or a disease?

I'm scared, but the only person that makes me assured is already gone.

I'm willing to give you another chance, Xav.

I'm willing to give us another chance.

We can start anew again, we can be together again, we can be each other's home again.

Just tell me that you still love me, and I'd gladly accept you.

That's because i love you, Xav.

Always remember that.

- Loving, Celestia.
✧ 12-21-2020

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