run {fear street trilogy}

part sixteen

  The ambulance was driving away, but no one was giving me answers.

I then saw cindy sitting with tommy while talking to a cop. I decided I should ask them what happened.

"what is wrong with my mom? Is she okay," I asked.

They both seemed uncomfortable to the question.

"your mom attacked tommy with a knife in the mess hall," the cop explained. 
"no no she would have never hurt anyone," I said in denial.
He said, "she just went crazy."

I knew what he was referring to.
'crazy runs in the family'

I looked down at my feet not knowing what to say. She must have had a reason. But, tommy was so sweet and wouldn't have upset my mom.

they barely even talked.

Ziggy was eyeing me from across the field. She was as sad as I was at the moment. She knew my mom well. At least one person didn't think she was insane.

"I have to go," I spoke while walking away.

I felt a lump in my throat and the tears started to build up in my eyes. My hand was on chest as I sped to my cabin.

I needed some space.

When I reached the cabin. I shut the door and sat on the floor with my head on my knees.

what if she is going to jail?
what if she is really hurt?
what if she is mentally ill and can't take care of me?

I didn't want to believe it.
It felt like everyone was leaving me.

elise is being a big star and getting out of the shittyside, my dad left, my mom is in a lot of trouble and hurt, and ruby is dead.

I wished that things would go back to the way they were then I was a kid.

There are too many things to handle.
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A few minutes passed by and I heard a knock on the door. I didn't want to talk to anyone.

I stayed quiet.

My eyes were tinted red and my cheeks were rosy with dried tears. I was sniffing my nose.

"abigail, it's me nick. I came to check on you," he said.
I said weakly, "go away nick."

"um okay, I guess you don't want my chocolate chip cookies," he spoke.

god I love chocolate chip cookies.

I sighed loudly.

"come in."

He opened the door and had a small tin box in his hand. Nick came in and shut the door behind him. He went and sat down gently on the bed and placed the cookies in front of me.

I opened the box and four perfectly round cookies were sitting in there. They were warm and had extra chocolate chips.

"you really didn't bring any milk," I said laughing and brushing my tears away.

He smiled and grabbed a cookie from the tin.