Let's Love, Idol!

Chapter 11

SHINA YOUNG

Solo ko ang buong first floor ng dorm. Hinayaan ata muna akong mapag-isa ng mga kasama ko dahil sa galit ko kanina. I regretted what I did but I had to teach them some manners. I was startled at kapag biglaan akong nagagalit minsan dire-diretso na yun hanggang sa mailabas ko ang aking nararamdaman. Isa kasi talaga sa mga pinakaayaw ko ay yung may nag-aaway sa aking harapan. I remember one time at Hundai, may dalawang babaeng empleyado na nagsabunutan dahil sa isang empleyadong lalaki na pinagsabay silang gawing girlfriend. They created a scene without knowing that I was watching them dahil nagkataon noon na may dinalaw akong department. Right there and then I fired them, pati yung lalaking dahilan ng away nila. Simula noon wala nang basta-basta nag-aaway na empleyado dahil sa takot na baka anytime mahuli ko sila. My father taught me that fighting in front of other people is a sign of disrespect, immaturity and weakness. And it's the disrespect that impacted me more. Not because they disrespect me but also the other people who can see them. Anger is like desire, you should get a proper room to release it.

I'm perfectly calmed down now. Everything is back to normal like nothing happened. RJ and August apologized to me already. Even Jin apologized not just for himself but also in behalf of other members. I was relieved that these three eldest members showed maturity on this aspect.

They are all in their room now, may kanya-kanyang pinagkakaabalahan. I can go home if I want to but since I'm just staying nearby and I'm bored in that new house, I choose to spend more time here. And about that limited shirt, nakausap ko na mismo ang isa sa mga designer ng Gucci na personal na nagsusukat sa akin ng damit kapag may pinapacostumize ako. He'll send me two pieces of that shirt by tomorrow. Dapat ay para sana yun sa dalawang binata niyang anak pero hindi niya ako magawang tanggihan. How could they refuse me when I once paid them five hundred thousand dollars just for a dress.

I turned on the TV and decided to watch videos of DVX in you tube. Pinili kong panoorin yung mga lumang episode nila ng Fun DVX baka sa mga videos na to ay may matutunan ulit akong bago tungkol sa mga pag-uugali nila. Subalit, nakatapos na ako ng ilang videos ay wala naman akong nakitang malaking pagkakaiba sa behavior nila sa harap ng camera from what they really are in person. They were playful, funny and they bickered a lot too. They just didn't use foul words unlike earlier. They're also proud to show their love for food. Sa tingin ko dahil sa pagiging abala nila at kakulangan sa personal na oras, kahit sa harap ng camera, they tried to find ways to enjoy the moment.

May napansin akong isang video. The title was a combination of Jin and Kookie's name. I suddenly got curious. Pinanood ko yun. My jaw dropped and I almost fell on my seat with what I saw. Jin and Kookie were cuddly, touchy and sweet to each other. The video is suggesting that they are in a more than friends relationship. Nanlalaki ang mga matang pinanood ko bawat slow motion ng pruweba ng pagiging malambing nila sa isa't isa. All of them were truly gestures of romantic love.

"What are these?" di makapaniwalang sambit ko sa aking sarili.

They were hugging each other, holding each other's hand, gently touching each other's face and there were even jealousy moments shown. They're all believable!

"What does these mean? Are these two beautiful men in love with each other?"

Napanganga ako sabay takip ng kamay sa aking bibig.

I watched another video. Ganun din ang pinapakita. Yung kakaibang closeness nina Jin and Kookie. Parang kapani-paniwala talaga na may relasyon sila. At ang nakakatawa ay kinikilig din ako sa aking napapanood. The way they looked at each other was melting my heart. Oh my! Is this the reason why he wasn't attracted to Suzie? Kaya ba wala siyang interes magka girlfriend because he's already in love with someone else and he prefers man?