Let's Love, Idol!

Chapter 18

JIN SHIN

Hindi ako mapakali sa higaan. Di malaman kung saan ako papaling. I'm trying to disect what Ms. Yura said that I kept making her heart race like crazy. Talo ko pa ang binatilyong kinikilig. I want to assume the dreamy meaning behind those words but part of myself is telling me not to. I am ninety five percent sure she is not married pero hanggang hindi ako one hundred percent na sigurado ay di pa rin tamang kunsintihin ang nararamdaman ko. 

I almost fell in my own trap earlier, buti na lang dumating si August kundi baka tuluyan akong nakalimot. I understood why she got angry, I knew I unconsciously went overboard. Hihingi na lang ako ng pasensiya bukas. Alam ko namang madali lang mawala ang galit niya.

But how did I make her heart race like crazy? And she specifically said the word 'always'. Hindi ko yun kailanman nahalata. When she's with me she only acted natural, happy or angry. I barely see her got nervous or tensed when I was around her. So what does she meant by her heart racing like crazy? Hindi kaya parehas lang kami ng nararamdaman para sa isa't isa pero hindi lang siya aware sa feelings niya? 

I punched the pillow beside me. Argh! Stop overthinking Jin! 

Tumayo ako at dali-daling binuksan ang aking desktop. I searched the name of Ms. Yura online but again, I couldn't find any information about her. Maraming mga kapangalan niya pero iba ang mga nakalagay na mukha.

She showed me her wedding photo and copy of marriage certificate few days ago para lang mapasinungalingan ang hinala ko. I searched the husband name online ngunit wala rin akong makita except sa mga ilang kapangalang lumabas na mga binatilyo at matatanda na. Walang mukhang thirty three years old na base sa nakasulat na birthday sa marriage contract. I think the document she gave me was fake. Ang wedding picture naman na pinakita niya ay tila bagong kuha lang. It's either photoshopped or baka naman nagpapicture lang siya lately with some random guy. I asked another picture of them on a normal day, wala na siyang maipakita and just gave me lame excuses. 

I sighed. I gave up searching the net again. Can she just tell me the truth for my peace of mind?

I got so much hints already that she's lying. I think Lawyer Kang knew also the truth because of what he said that he won't stop liking her unless a so called husband chase him. Ang nakapagpa-realize talaga sa akin ay yung pagkakadulas ni Chef Gayo. It was clearly written on his expression that he wasn't aware about the marriage.

Someone knocked on the door and I quickly turned off the computer.

"Who's that?"

Sumilip si August. "Jin matutulog ka na ba?"

"I'm about to. Why?" kaswal na sagot ko.

"Ah... can we talk for few minutes."

"Sure." Naisip ko na baka may gusto siyang pag-usapan tungkol sa ginagawang bagong kanta. He often asks my opinion about lyrics and melody when he's making song.

He has two cans of beer in his hands. "You want to drink?"

Malugod ko iyong tinanggap at binuksan agad. "Thanks."

Naupo ako sa aking kama at siya naman ay sa silyang inalisan ko. He moved the chair closer to my bed. He opened his beer and crossed his legs.

"Is your new song going well?" tanong ko.

"Yes I'm quite inspired nowadays. Thanks to Ate Yura. She's making our occupied world looks less stressful and tiring."

Natigilan ako sa sinabi niya. Seryoso ko siyang tiningnan. "What do you mean by that? Do you like her?" kabadong tanong ko.