F E I G N E D | elounor

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I tilted the bottle to my mouth and savored every drop of alcohol. Lately I had been feeling really low, so I called up a friend. Zayn was busy with his girlfriend Gigi for a show, so I asked Liam if he was free and he agreed to meet me at a bar. From the looks of it, Liam seemed like he needed a drink too. I guess he and Sophia were having some problems and they were talking about splitting up. This was the first I had heard of it since Eleanor never told me anything. Come to think of it, I couldn't remember the last time Eleanor even mentioned Sophia's name.

"You alright mate?" I asked him. Liam stared lifelessly at his bottle.

"Yeah. I mean, no but I will be. Hopefully things blow over." He said and shrugged.

"Do you want them too?" I asked him genuinely curious.

I had to ask because apparently this issue comes up a lot for them. Was Liam tired of trying with Sophia? He's almost like he's disappointed but it was expected.

"I don't want to be a dick. It's her body, obviously I don't want to force her to become kids. But to avoid this very problem, we talked about it over and over and over again and we were on the same page that we wanted to at least start trying by now. For a while she was just putting it off saying she wasn't ready, and I obliged of course. But this time she's saying she doesn't want kids at all." Liam said shaking his head.

"You're young. Why do you want kids already?" I asked him in disbelief. Kids were nowhere on my agenda of life any time soon.

"I've been in love with her since grade school. We love each other. I want to have a family. If she wants to put it off again well fine, but now no kids at all? I want a family." He said sadly.

I frowned.

"You know I want to see her with a big belly, and feel all the baby kicks. I want to hold her hand during labor and tell her she's doing amazing. I want to experience that moment where we hold our child for the first time. I want to experience it all with her." Liam went on.

With every word he said, I couldn't help but imagine what Eleanor would look like pregnant. Beautiful, no doubt. I would freak out but hold her hand while she screams in pain, tell her she's doing amazing.

I shook my head of those thoughts.

"I'm really sorry to hear that mate, but I'm going to be honest with you. If she's not on the family path anymore, then don't waste anymore of your time. I know it's gonna be hard, it's going to be hard as fuck to move on. But once you do, there's this great beyond you didn't even know about. All of a sudden this new person comes into your life and fixes things you didn't even know you needed fixing. You can't even remember a time where they weren't in your life." I spoke fondly.

Liam gave a small smile. "You mean Eleanor."

I couldn't help but smile and nod. "Eleanor fixed me."

"And moving on from Danielle."

"Yes."

"Did you actually cheat?" He asked me blatantly.

I quickly shook my head no, and took a chug of my beer to divert the uncomfortableness of the question.

"No."

Liam nodded his head accepting that answer.

"Well I'm glad you moved on. Eleanor too, man. I couldn't believe she was getting married after Harry." Liam said.

Liam knew Harry?

"Wait, what?" I asked him.

Liam looked like he immediately regretted what he said, and cleared his throat uncomfortably.