It's been really hard these last few weeks. I've told everyone. Other than that I've been avoiding my family and friends because I know they will ask if I'm ok. I'm not ok.
Losing her feels like I lost a piece of me. Everytime I think back I want to crumble up and cry but I can't. I need to move forward, I can't bring her back, but I can start living my own life.
It took me hours of thinking, staring at the wall, laying in bed, to realize that No one can take away the love I still have for my baby. No one can take away the other shattered parts of me except for me. Only I can collect the pieces and put them back together.
Draco has been distant too. He's coming home late and drunk. He barely looks at me, talks to me or touches me. I know he feels responsible and guilty, no matter how many times I've assured him he's wrong.
"Draco" I call from across the table
"You need to eat" he tells me plainly
"I will when you talk to me"
"How am I supposed to talk to you, damnit?" He storms out of the room, I follow"
"Speak. Draco this isn't your fault. My body wouldn't handle it. She was a part of us, but she's gone. We can't fill that whole by tearing us apart"
I grab his hand, he turns to face me. His skin is even colder than usual. His eyes are bloodshot from crying.
"I know you're right. I just can't get it together. I need you, Alex"
"I'm right here. I will never leave you." I whisper in his ear, wrapping my arms around his muscular body. He pulls away kissing my forehead tenderly. "Why don't you stay home today, we can spend some time together?" I offer
"Ok, love." He responds and I cup his cheek, placing a gentle kiss on his lips.
"We should probably finish eating" I suggest and he nods
We snuggle on the couch. I grab mint- chocolate-chip ice cream and a bottle of Vodka.
"Hey, promise me something?" I hold out the bottle
"What t'is it?" He asks
"We can sulk, but only if were sulking together"
"I promise, Love" He opens the bottle as I start eating some ice cream. He chugs the alcohol wincing as it burns his throat.
"Gimme that" He refuses instead holding the bottle over my mouth fine. "Fine" He tilts the bottle back and I feel the familiar sting in my throat, I swallow hard. Memories flood my brain and I frown. Suddenly I feel my sides being attacked from behind. I start giggling uncontrollably.
"Stoppp-I...can't…breathe" I pant out he releases me reluctantly
"You looked so sad, this was the only thing I could think to do." his words made my heart melt.
I crawl up to his lap, straddling him, kissing his lips "You are so perfect"
"No, Darling, that's all you" I smile, laying my head in his chest, he holds me in a tight embrace.
The next morning
I wake up, close to Draco's chest. I stay there for a while, turning around tracing his muscles. He looks at me stroking my hair. I attempt to get up but he pulls me closer.
"Draco, I have to get up, I have an interview I need to get ready for"
"Stay." He pouts. I want to stay in bed, touching his body, but we haven't since we lost her, I don't want to push it.
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𝐁𝐎𝐍𝐃✧ /𝐃𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐨 𝐌𝐚𝐥𝐟𝐨𝐲/
Fanfiction"Come here, Princess" He smirks "I've decided, were going to have some time to bond" In which, Alex Parker is forced to bond with her kidnapper, Draco Malfoy.
