Finding Joy

Chapter 32

"Nice to meet you Lauren." Taylor said.

"Nice to meet you as well." I said shaking her hand.

I don't know how to feel about her right now. I'm gonna play it cool because I honestly don't want her walking up I. Here trying to take Cara. That's not cool.

"What you want?" Devin asked her getting straight to the point.

"I can't get invited in?" She asked timidly.

"Nah. We busy." He said shortly.

"Please, it won't take long I swear." She said.

He clenched his jaw, and looked at me. I looked away letting him know this was all his decision. He opened the door a not more.

"Come in but make this fast." He said.

I was about to leave out before he grabbed my arm.

"Stay with me for a little." He said.

"You really don't trust her?" I asked.

"No." He said.

I sighed and nodded my head. I quickly went to my car explaining what was going on with my mother. She decided it'd be best if she took my car back home with the kids and when we were done Devin could drop me off.

I agreed to it knowing that devin was comfortable with my mother having Cara because when she was younger she'd watch her. Melly, Cara and my mother are so close they call her grandma.

As I made my way back in the house I saw that Devin was still waiting at the front door. This girl might be dangerous for him to not even want to be around her without me here.

"So how did you find me?" Devin asked as we sat down.

"Well I first went to your office they wouldn't give me any information but then I started to ask around and everyone seemed to know you." she said.

"So what you want?" He asked.

She began to fiddle with her fingers. "Well of course I want to talk about Cara-"

"No. You can't take her." I found myself saying. "You can't just come and decide you're ready to be me a mother and just take her from him, from me, from us and our family. That little girl is our whole life. You can't just take her." I said as tears came down my eyes.

Devin quickly hugged me and turned my face towards him whipping my tears telling me everything would be okay.

"I don't wan to take her." She said.

"What?" Devin asked.

"When I left her on the porch, with that note I said I would come back when I'm settled and good in my career but I don't want to take her back. I wanted to come and give you full custody of her." She said. "But under one condition." She said.

Devin clenched his jaw. "I get to keep her on the weekends." She said.

"You just told me you weren't ready to be a mother but you can on the weekend? No. Ain't no damn condition. Cara doesn't even know you exist." He said angry.

"You can't just tell me I can't see my baby Devin." She said.

"I can and I fucking did. You know what you did to my daughter? Hm? You left her on a god damn porch at less than a year old. She could have left and roamed the streets, crawling because you just left her. She could have gotten sicker than what she did and seriously hurt! " he said.

"I'm sorry." She started.

"No Taylor! Fuck that sorry. You're not coming up in here asking for visitation rights when you have never been a mother to her. You selfish all you do is think of yourself." He said bitterly.

"How? You acting like I killed her." She yelled.

"No you didnt kill her because then you'd have no way of getting me back. You're always think bout you. You didn't tell me I was having a baby. You were selfish when you left her outside of my mothers house in the fucking cold like you did and you're selfish right now because you're doing what's convenient for only you, you're saying fuck how much I'm messing up your lives. It don't matter because Taykor will still be okay." He said.

"How was I supposed to tell you about her? I didn't know where you lived." She yelled.

"But you found my mother when you were ready to call it quits on my baby girl and now she's five and you want to talk about some god damn being in her life. No!" He said.

"You talk about me selfish. You are right now." She said.

"You know what? I am selfish because I'm busting my behind providing for my family; making sure my daughter is okay and maintaining a career. I did all of that while taking her to doctors and specialist, I had to find out through other people that your dumb ass, had my fucking daughter around niggas smoking and shit. My daughters development was slowed down? The doctors said because of trauma. Trauma is why she couldn't do the shit other kids her age was doing and it's all because of you. I don't even want to imagine what they did to her but my job now, my duty as her father now is to make sure no fucking body hurts my child again. So if that's what makes me selfish, that's what the fuck I am. " He said.

"Devin, I swear to you I'm not trying to hurt her. I came here because I don't want to get any lawyers involved." She said.

He laughed menacingly. "Lawyers? I love lawyers! Being them and see how fast I ruin your whole life. Listen, and listen carefully you will never ever see my daughter again. You are dismissed." He said fumingly.

At this moment I don't know exactly how to feel. Devin filled me in on all the neurologist appointments and things he had to do to find out about all the things that could have possibly happened to Cara but seeing the woman in front of me I didn't want to believe that she'd hurt her daughter. Or if she did she changed. Either or, it doesn't matter because Devin has made up his mind.

A/N

So let me just say, this chapter I had done when I updated the last chapter in the first half hour based on the votes y'all could have had this chapter smh. But comment for the next one.

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