Finding Joy

Chapter 34

"Good Morning Ms. Lau Lau." Cara said jumping on the bed.

"Morning Cara baby." I said smiling.

"Daddy say me get you." She said.

"Say that again, slower please." I asked.

She nodded and breathed in like Devin and I taught her. "Daddy said for me to come get you." She said smiling.

"Great job Cara Love!" I said tickling her.

"Yay!" She yelled laughing from my tickling. "Stop too much tickle." She said.

"Too much tickle? I've never heard you say too much tickle." I said amazed.

"I like tickle but I get no air." She said laughing.

"You couldn't breathe?" I asked.

"Yeah. I could no breathe." She said laughing.

I smiled at her. "You could not breathe Cara. You could not. And I see you lost a tooth." I said.

"Yes. I wake up this morning and no tooth." She said

"Really!" I asked her.

"Mmhm. I think the tooth taker took it because I didn't get no monies either." She said shaking her head sadly.

"Well let's go look in your room to see if we find it." I said. "After I go shower though."

"Okay." She said as I got out of bed.

I went to go take a quick shower and take my hair down from the night before. Once I was all done, We went to her room, and went looking for her tooth.

"First let's make this bed. Maybe we will find it." I suggested.

She nodded and grabbed her tedd, who protect her when monsters try and get her when daddy isn't looking bears also know as her guard bears and put them to the side. Once we were done putting the sheets back properly on the bed, and I flapped the covers into the air a few times and she was in a full laugh frenzy as the wind blew across her face she gasped and laughed and jumped up and down in the bed. These little moments to me are the sweetest.

"Again again again!" She clapped excitedly and I smiled.

"Tomorrow when we make your bed we can do it again, right now my arms are tired." I said.

She laughed and nodded. "Let's look for tooth." She said.

I nodded and decided to ask her about school.

"Ms. Lauren can I tell you secret?" She asked.

"Of course you can Amore." I said.

"Ms. Lauren when I get scared and no talk like the other kids they say I no smart." She told me.

"What?" I asked a little shocked at her sudden confession.

"Mmhm. Be-because sometime I-I forget word and I no say it so they say I no smart and I a baby." She said sadly.

I felt myself tearing up at the sight of her cry. Devin wasn't able to get the help she needed because when he got her, he thought she was fine and that she was not speaking because she didn't know anybody.

Now, she's in school and she has really bad stuttering when she reads or gets nervous. She's extremely smart but her speech sometimes slows her down, and the fact that she's very insecure about it makes it worse.

"I want be like the other friends. They no talk again and again like I do when I read. They normal." She said.

"Cara, you aren't normal okay? And it's nothing wrong with that because you are so so special to me, and your daddy and all of us. Don't let those mean kids dictate how you feel about you because you are one of the most smartest, most kind most extraordinary babies I know okay? And I am not just saying that because You're my baby I'm saying that because that's truly what you are." I said to her. "I love you Cara." I said as she whipped away my tears