Enemies - (Bucky x Reader)

Part 10 - Mission Preparations

Bucky's POV

*The next morning

I can't believe I'm going to say this but I awoke to one of the most blissful sleeps I've ever had. No nightmares, no waking up, no anything. Just pure bliss. At this point my eyes were still closed, I wanted to savour the last few moments I could before everything changed again and I was thrown back into battle. I realise that my arms are wrapped around something.

Please be a pillow!

I open my eyes and the truth dawns on me. Me and Y/n are literally as close as we possibly be and my arms are enveloped around her torso. She fits so perfectly that I'm too comfortable and contemplating whether the aftermath of her reaction will be worth staying longer.

I come to the conclusion it isn't. Plus we can't be fighting anymore than we do before a mission, it could jeopardise everything. Especially with her inexperience with this kind of stuff. Sure she can fight but it's not just about fighting, it's more than that. I already know now she can't handle that, she's too innocent. That's why she'll never fully understand me. She's like everyone else. They don't know what I went through, they'll never be able to understand the true extent of the pain, they'll just never fully understand why I am like I am now.

Closed off!

And Y/n certainly will never come close to understanding in any way. Steve helps a bit because of his trauma which thank god wasn't to the extent of mine but I just can't fully open up to him. Can't let him see how weak I was. Can't let him see the true me anymore. The only thing going for me is that I wasn't really myself back then. Or else I don't think I would have ever made it out. Sure how could you? How could you go through all that and make it out still yourself.

It's impossible.

I'm brought from my thoughts when I feel a slight movement in front of me.

Shit, she's waking up!

Quickly and quietly I move myself from our current position and make my way out of the bed. Luckily she doesn't wake up until I'm out of the bed.

Dodged a bullet there. Probably literally if she caught us in that position.

She sits up contently for a moment before her eyes meet mine and she immediately removes the smile from her face.

"So are you going to tell me what your nightmare was about last night?" I question

"What no good morning, how are you?" She rolls her eyes with that statement.

"Stop trying to dodge the question!" I rebuttal.

"I'm not it's just really none of your business, is it?" She snaps at me.

I decide to try play the guilt card on her, maybe it will work, maybe it won't, but it's worth a shot.

"I'm sorry that I was just trying to help you last night and make you feel comfortable but if you don't want me to be concerned in the future just say it now!" Hopefully this works. I really want to know what was going on in her head last night. She seemed genuinely scared.

"Oh... I was trapped........in a room full of.......spiders, yeah spiders!" Y/n says.

I know for a fact she's lying but I can tell she clearly felt bad and wanted to a least pretend she was opening up. I just wish I got the actual truth so I decide to push a little.

"So why were you asking the spiders not to hurt people then?" I question.

Maybe I shouldn't have kept pushing her.