Light in Grievous Times (Scholar Series #3)

Chapter 17

Chapter 17

I hate doing things that will make me regret them in the end.

I know what happened to us was wrong. But Zy... You liked it, right? You enjoyed it. And you had fucking initiated it. There is no way to blame Kiro. Being naturally sexy isn't his sin anyway.

Tinago ko ang pills sa closet at nahiga ulit sa kama. I'm already in my uniform pero wala pa sa isip ko ang umalis at pumasok sa university.

The scenarios from last night keep flashing through my mind. Kahit sa panaginip ko ay dinadalaw ako. I could still hear my voice. His groans. And because of that... I don't know if I can face Kiro today.

He saw the whole me.

Naked.

Tataguan ko na lang siguro siya.

He's not texting me yet. Sometimes I thought he wasn't impressed by what he had experienced last night. Disappointed ba siya sa akin?

Napapikit ako ng madiin at sinabunutan ang aking sarili.

Ang hina ko! Napaka hina ko!

Shit. Shit. Shit, Zy. To connect with him is a sin and to think about his experience with you is another! What happened to your freaking principles in life!?

Halos mapaigtad ako nang mag-ring ang cellphone ko. I looked at it and Kiro's caller I.D is flashed! Oh my god!

Anong kailangan nito?

Damn.

I cleared my throat first before answering him. Umayos ako ng upo.

"Good morning..." He greeted me. Ilang segundo akong natahimik. I don't know why I'm running out of words until Kiro finally speaks again. "You know ... last night was memorable."

My mouth dropped open when he brought it back.

Shit.

But that's really. A memorable night for me. Of course. It was my first time being laid. He was the first guy I'd ever tasted. And that first time did not disappoint me.

"Bakit ka pala tumawag?" I asked, ignoring what he had said, trying to change the topic.

"Uh..." He murmured. "Please don't be afraid to tell me if I got you pregnant."

"What?!" Gulat at natatawang tanong ko. I tried to act cool, kahit na pakurap-kurap at napaka bilis na ng tibok ng puso ko. Fuck.

Slowly, I walked back and forth. Napangiwi pa ako dahil nakalimutan kong liitan ang hakbang ko. Fuck. I'm still sore for heaven's sake.

I've already used an ice pack yet the pain is still here.

"Zy... We hadn't used protection." He said on the other line.

"I know..." I whispered.

"We can never know it by now ... I just called to tell you that I am willing to shoulder everything if you're gonna be carrying my child. If you begin to notice that something is different from you, call me, so we can have a checkup, so we can start planning early."

Nalaglag ang panga ko sa haba ng sinabi niya. Shit. I gulped and composed myself.

"So kung mangyayari ngang nabuntis mo ako. Ibabahay mo ako ganoon?" I asked.

"Of course." Mabilis na sagot niya.

"Nag-aaral ako Kiro."

"You can be homeschooled if you don't want to stop. Kayang-kaya kong gawan ng paraan 'yon, Zy."