Life is hard. You can't have everything as much as you want.
Love is hard. You can see people together with you all the time as what you want.
Because finding peace from a chaos is not easy.
Chasing your dreams while facing your anxiety is a great stress to deal with.
Ignoring the judgements from others is self-drowning.
Inflicting yourself by your own thoughts is depressing.
Praying while losing your hope and faith in Him felt worthless.
Cheering up yourself for countless times after a big blow sounds stupid.
And faking your laughs and smiles is a suicidal move you loves to do.
But for some reason, you hold your chin up and chose to open your eyes to see the light.
And then there you saw the reasons why you needed to fight.
You have your -
family who secretly pray for your health,
friends who always try to make some jokes just to see your smile,
lover who never get tired of lifting you up in your darkness nights,
God who never leaves you at every moment of your life.
So be it and just face the curse of this world with humbleness, love and purity.
Because sooner or later, you'll face the real heaven of His world you ever wishes to have - to be explore with a great safety to secure.
(Written: 24th of August, 2021)
