Space between 2 halfs

Thinking about the worst

Yup...I just yelled out that I was in love, which still thinking back is funny but I wasn't lying, that was the bare truth. I didn't intend on conveying the news in this manner....not really sure if they believed me or not but after I said that, their tone changed completely from being at the highest point of anger to a calm and understanding state.

"Nathan I understand, but you need to put a side all of that for now just until your exams are over, even she would like it if you were in a good position". I can't help but agree with him, he did have a point, I assume girls like guys that have a solid career behind them and can stand for themselfs.

I picked up my phone and texted madi; "I'll text you in a few weeks, I'm srry". Moments later I came to realisation on what the fuck I just did. She replies "ok Nathan be careful". And that was it, it was done. I couldn't sleep that night, I knew texting her that was the most stupidest thing I have ever done. I rather have her over any job I get offered to be honest. To say exactly how I feel about her, I would give away my iPhone for her. Yes I'm a huge Apple fan so that's a huge deal for me.

It was bugging me on how I was going to tell her, I'm really bad at expressing myself so this is going to be really hard. I was feeling depressed as ever for the first time in my life.

I'm going to give her a call tomorrow, hope it doesn't turn out bad...