Space between 2 halfs

One of many spaces

I'm absolutly dreading this day, not only cause it's the last day of the week-end but also it could very well be the last in a long time that I would get to hear Maddison's voice. I wake up thinking why did couldn't it be Friday. I take a shower, get my breakfast and started putting together what I was going to say to madi in a way that our relationship won't take a wrong turn.

Few minutes in I get really frustrated and involuntarily texted madi "I'll call you around half 1,if you can't then that's fine, I'll text you when I come back". That would be half 8 am for her. At the time when I sent the text it didn't seem like a bad idea but it sounded like I was giving her no choice, it was too late to take it back, as always you only regret it after it happens.

I waited impatiently as the time raced by, at 1:33 pm my time I get a text from madi; "Nathan...are you ok..What's it's about?", I called immediately Without replying. She picks up "hey Nathan what's up?", I could feel the smile as she said it and it was selfish of me to take that away from her as I say In a sadistic tone "Madison, we need to talk". I could tell she was completely blind to this situation; "sure..".

I pause, constructing my next sentence carefully, "My grades haven't really been at their best...and I need to take some time to get back on track and study for the finals. I don't want to, but this is my last year and I really need to do well if I want to get a good career. Don't think I don't want to talk to you because I love every second of it, but I need to just get these exams over with then I'll be back talkin to you everyday"

I go over what I said in my head and it was nothing similar to what I actually wanted to say, I made it sound like I care about my education more than her but there was no point saying anything else cause I would just end up making it worse. "Yes of-course I completely understand..I'll miss you". Yup...she just said that she misses me, I hear many people say it but when madi said it, I got confident about this whole conversation and I instantly felt jubilant.

I take another pause because I was still lost for words from her last statement. "Madi. I'll miss you loads. More than you know".

"Do your best Ya, remember you have my full support no matter what. If you ever need someone to talk to or if you're feeling stressed, you know where to find me". This really did boost me to the max, her words were just so....can't really explain.

"Thanks madi, be safe ya. Enjoy the rest of your day. I'll text you in a few months I promise I'll be back...I love you." Yup, I just said "I love you"....and definitely not regretting it. "I...I..love you too Nathan..take care". I wouldn't have minded if she didn't say anything back but hearing her say it made me forget about all the problems I ever had.

We hang up, I lay back on my sofa and stared at the ceiling recollecting the memories of her....