Not so much in love with the badboy (ENGLISH)-✔

19. Pain

Three weeks.

Three.

Fucking.

Weeks.

They've been gone for three weeks and I haven't heard anything. No call, no message and no visits. Nothing! What did I do wrong?

Everyone at school is staring at me and I've had enough! Tomorrow I go to a new school. Hopefully I can start there with a clean slate. But that will have to be done with make-up, because those red-rimmed eyes from the continuous crying are starting to show from three miles away.

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And here I am.

Back at a new school. The second in three months. Why has it been so long?

I open my locker with a sigh. I am startled by a loud bang on the locker next to me. When I look up I think I see a mirage. 'Go away.' I growl. Her face twitches. 'Why?' she asks softly.

"You're nothing more than a memory of my first day at school last time. And now everyone's standing here staring at me because I'm talking to myself. Nice." I sigh. Now she smiles again.

"Nora, I promise I'm the real Nell, and not a memory or whatever you want to call it." she laughs. I don't believe her. "That's what you always say at night." I growl back. She pulls me into a hug and I sniff her scent in surprise. "You... Nell? What are you doing here? And why are you suddenly talking to me now?' I ask confused. She grins.

"That stupid dad of mine forbade me and Stan to see you again and then we were transferred." she explains. My mouth falls open. "So I haven't done anything wrong? You're not mad at me?" I ask with relief. She nods. "But what are you doing here?" she then asks. I look at her with a sigh. Then I drag her into the bathroom and splash some water on my face. She is startled when she sees my red eyes.

"Jesus, Nora! What's up with you?" she asks, startled. We walk out of the toilets again. "Well, I happened to be very much in love with that brother of yours. And when it turned out that he had only used me for his bed, I was quite devastated inside." I let out a painful grin. "So, since everyone at school knew it anyway, I didn't give a shit about my looks and when those pitiful looks got too much for me, I begged to be transferred."

Suddenly I hear a loud bang. Startled, I turn around and look straight into Stan's face. He looks at me startled for a while. His mouth is open and his eyes are wide. The first thing I think is, man, that one looks bad. And it is true. He has bags up to the middle of his nose and his eyes are bloodshot.

"What..." comes out of his mouth. Nothing anymore. I am worth nothing more than this. Everything I hoped for when we saw each other again is gone. Probably all he thinks about is the fact that I'm here and can tell his secret. Not that I would, by the way.

"Stan, keep walking." Nell says. He takes his eyes off me and glares at Nell. "New." he growls. Then he looks at me again. "She's not real, is she? Fuck, those drugs were strong. Nellie, get me out of here. Wake me up or something, but don't leave me in this torture." He walks away and I look after him. Am I torture? And drugs? Why did he take drugs?

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I'm doing my homework when Nell calls me.

It feels strange that she's the one calling me now, when I've been spamming her all the time for the past three weeks.

"Hey?"

"Nora, you have to come here now! Stan's gone crazy. Our parents can't handle him anymore and he shouts 'queen' all the time! Please, Nora! Get over here!"