My Prince (Spock x reader)

Chapter 30

 You were suddenly awakened by Spock hovering over you, breathing heavily and kissing your neck.

"Spock, I enjoy this, but what are you doing?" You groaned out.

"Isn't it obvious, t'hai'la?" The Vulcan growled into your ear.

You then were able to hastily flip him over, catching him off guard. "Oh this isn't you, you wanted to wait till the Pon'Farr and the ceremony before we did this."

"You were right, we shouldn't wait any longer." He smirked as he brushed some hair out of your face.

"Okay we are not doing this." you tried to move off of him and he instead flipped you back under him, pinning you to the bed. He kept you there by grabbing your wrists tightly. Your heart began to race as you felt a mix between fear and infatuation. "Spock. Get off of me." You ordered, trying your best to give him an angry glare.

"Absolutely not," He spat, sweat beaded on your forehead.

"Are you sick?! What is happening to you!"

"Nothing! I am perfectly healthy and can easily take care of your needs!" He yelled. You bit back your tears as your heart and mind edged on a panic attack. You felt so trapped and you tried to control your breathing as you felt yourself start to hyperventilate.

"S-Spock, please-" You squeaked out as your panic took over. Suddenly your chest and neck hurt as your senses were overloaded and stinging tears rolled down your cheeks. Spock suddenly changed expressions from anger to extreme guilt as he quickly got off of you and backed away. You sat up and held your knees to your chest as you tried to control your breathing.

"Ashausu- I-I'm so sorry, I don't know what came over me- please, forgive me. I'm so sorry, I'm-" He sputtered out, his emotions controlling him. He looked at you, as you were in a dissociative state just trying your best to calm down. "I-I'll grab Kieran, I believe that the Pon'Farr may have already started." He then left the room, but you barely took notice, everything was so blurry and your heart was in your throat.

"(Y/N)! What happened?" Kieran asked, their hair now shorter and dyed fiery red was already messy and fluffed up. It seems they have been up for a while.

"I-It's nothing, I'll be fine." You muttered.

Kieran furrowed their eyebrows, "No it's not! Spock already slightly explained the situation and I know you well enough to know that having a severe panic attack is not fine!" They then let out a long sigh and ruffled your hair. "C'mon, let's try a couple of quick exercises."

You gave a quick nod as you stared into their brown eyes and soft tan face, they slowly encouraged you through the rectangle breathing exercise and then through a five senses grounding exercise. "Alright, I'm doing better." You breathed out.

"Good, I'm glad." They smiled. "Now, do I need to kill or fight Spock because he didn't explain the whole situation and I am prepared to fight a Vulcan for you!"

"What! No! Kieran- it's a private Vulcan thing, but it's not his fault! It's a biology thing." You vaguely explained.

"That's not an excuse, I have anger issues and I still control myself."

"Well he literally can't it is an extremely delicate matter, and it is extremely hard to control. You know that illegal drug the human kingdom has recently gotten obsessed with?"

"Do you mean cocaine?"

"Yes I mean cocaine, if you took a whole dose of it, can you control yourself?"

"I don't do cocaine, how would I know?"

You gave out a groan, "Hypothetically, Kieran."

"Probably not."