endlessly; lorenzo berkshire

SPACE

ELOISE MICHAELS

I lay in my bed, just staring at the wall. I don't know how I'm supposed to tell Lorenzo I want a break. I love him but I need this.

I don't want to feel insecure.

I don't want to feel like the bad guy for being jealous.

I wasn't bothered that he kissed Lucille's forehead. It was more so that he even wanted to, after being told by Draco or myself otherwise?

What's special about Lucille that you're willing to piss others off?

I love Lorenzo, truly. I don't want us to breakup. 

Maybe I'm just doing this to protect myself. Not from Enzo but from getting hurt.

This was a repeated pattern during year 5. I would sleep with a guy, spend all my time around him but as soon as it got too real, I would walk away.

Was I doing that to Enzo or were my feelings valid?

A knock emits from the door, "You want me to get it don't you?" Onyx assumed.

I closed my eyes, pretending to sleep. I didn't care for whoever was at the door.

I hear Lucille pounce out of bed, "I'm so sorry Enzo," She groaned.

So Enzo was at the door. Great.

"Ah, don't worry about it. It's Malfoy. I'll talk to him later," He chuckled. "Is Oise awake?"

"No, she's asleep," Onyx answered.

"Are you in pain?" Lucille questioned Lorenzo.

"No, I'm a man of steel," He joked.

"Again, I'm sorry, Lorenzo. I don't know why he's-."

"Lucille, I said don't worry about it. I know Draco- He's very impulsive. And it's my fault- He did tell me to stop kissing your forehead," He responded, "Which I will stop doing. I'm just glad I still look stunning."

"I'm glad you're okay," Lucille spoke.

LORENZO BERKSHIRE

"I'm glad, too. Luckily my beautiful girlfriend helped fix my wounds," I announced.

Onyx visibly became uncomfortable, looking over to Eloise's bed.

What was that?

"You should talk to Draco," I suggest to Lucille.

"About?" She furrowed her eyebrows.

I groan "Lucille! You're fucking bipolar! Tell him how you feel, for fuck's sake. Communicate, it's not that difficult".

"Oh, not that difficult? We're talking about Draco Lucius Malfoy here!"

"So what! Luce-. Lucille. If you love this man you're going to do what it takes. It should always be 50/50 BUT clearly Draco can't provide his other half right now. He fucking needs you, Lucille." I sternly stated.

She finally shut up, just nodding.

"You're right," She responded lowly.

"I'm gonna go back but I'll come back later when Oise is awake," I smiled, turning away and shutting the door behind me.

"How am I supposed to tell him?" A muffled voice said. It was Eloise.

"You're just going to have to find time to talk to him," Onyx responded.

"Wait what's happening?" Lucille added.

I'm wondering the same Lucille.

I walk away before I hear anymore. I shouldn't be eavesdropping.