DESPERATE

CHAPTER 40

"She'll be alright, Pls don't make her stress. I would advice you to not leave her alone here, She will be awaken anytime soon" The doctor said to lisa. She barely hear what the doctor been saying she was just looking at jennie's sleeping state..

She decided to sit on the bedside, holding and squeezing jennie's hand.. Looking at her pretty face with full of worries and thinking what would she explain to jennie about losing the baby, It was really painful for lisa to find out that the baby was gone but she's more worried about jennie..

Jennie hummed in response to Lisa's hands touching hers, She opened her eyes slowly and seeing lisa smiling at her, She coudl not react lisa was quick to get another pillow to put on jennie's back and grab a glass of water for her...

"Drink this first" Lisa said without looking into jennie's eyes..
the latter drink it carefully and when she landed her eyes onto her stomach, she starting to panic again...

"Lisaaaa!!. t-the baby?!" her shakey voice was giving pain for lisa to explain, All she could do is to hug her...

"No! No! Nooo!.. lisa tell me the baby is alrighttt. pleassseee!!." The only thing lisa could responsed is to hushed and hugged her tightly...

"Don't touch meeee, This is all because of youuu.. are you happy that the baby was gone and you don't owe me a responsibility anymore? and you're going back to the girl you love? is that right lisaa?"Jennie bursting out, as she couldn't control her emotions anymore.. Lisa was shocked about the sudden act of jennie, Losing a baby was really painful for the both of them, But thinking about jennie not trusting her with all her heart makes lisa think that all the times She's been so faithful and carefully not wanting jennie to get hurt was not really enough. Lisa was hesitant if she will answer jennie or remain silent, she wants to be patient and be understandable as she should be..

"You know what jen, Losing a child feels like losing everything. And thinking that you don't trust me enough makes me want to die" that what lisa said, and before she could go out She turned back to jennie and said "You only trust me if it could benefits you"

Lisa walks away feeling hopeless, She stumbled to many people but she couldn't careless..
Jennie was also devastating thinking  that It's her fault, She is free to let go of lisa at all terms. She doesn't deserve lisa at all..

Jennie was still crying the door opened and she was expecting lisa to come back but it wasn't, It's rosie and her twin sister.

"Ohmyy jenn, are feeling okay right now? why are you crying where's lisa?" rosie said in a worried tone.

"Rosie can you please leave us alone first" Roseanne said to her sister, Rosie wasn't convinced but when jennie motion her to go out she had no choice..

The two women looked at each other, But roseanne was so brave to break the ice..

"I guess i was late, Hate me or kill me but i did plan about getting lisa back but from the moment i told her everything i thought she would come to me, and i was wrong. She was happy to see me again and even congratulate me for surviving being ill, Its funnyyyy----" roseanne was giving a light laugh to make the conversation comfortable in behalf on jennie's situation.  "It's so funny that she even invite me to your gender reveal announcement and even asked me if i could go and attend your upcoming wedding, I was so hurt knowing that iam madly inlove with her. I just cried that's when she hugged me i never thought that because of that you'd be in this situation.."
Jennie's mind was on deep thoughts, how could she even say something or response just alittle when she only felt anger to herself and ashamed..

" Please don't ever think of blaming yourself, it wasn't your fault Jennie., it is never too late. Im sorry for your lose, But Lisa is a good man.. I bet my life on it" She hugged jennie tenderly, at the moment jennie was sure about the girl hugging her was a good person to trust.. She keeps crying and crying to the lady infront of her, Roseanne had to go back to the company so rosie was the one who's alert and kicking for jennie's service.

"Rosieeee where's lisaaa, I need herr" Jennie said more than a million times but rosie was just silently contacting lisa..

Jennie was patienly waiting for lisa to come back again, When the door swung open revealing lisa with her teary sad eyes jennie could only cry again. rosie knows that she have to go out and leave the two couple alone.

"Look, I bought your favorite mint ice cream and a pack of strawberry I was having a hard time looking for an expired condensed milk that's why i came late" Lisa said opening the ice cream bucket and handing the spoon to jennie..

"Why are you doing this? Please stop being so good. clearly i dont deserve you at all." jennie cries out loud, sobbing and holding her chest. But lisa was just peeling and putting condensed milk on the plate full of strawberry.

"Don't cry" Lisa shortly replied.

"Pleasee don't do this, Im so sorry but i would not expect you to forgive me, if only i could swap my life to our child i would. I love you enough to let you let go of me, Please stopp" jennie still crying but when lisa put a strawberry on her mouth she gradually eat it..

"You maybe the superior in our relationship, But asking me to let go of you would be the last thing i would do. Im sorry I just love you enough that i won't let you smile without me" Lisa said bowing as she couldn't look at jennie's eyes, She want to be manly enough to be with jennie at all times. She was controlling and not letting her tear fall.
"Loving you means getting to see you at your worst and that is something that I am well-prepared of, I know you need someone who's patient enough and i want to be the first guy you'd ever think of.. Don't ever think about leaving me, You're mine.. This time we'll do it on my own ways, This day might be tough but i truly believe that one day the love and hapiness that we wanted would come. Just give me your  trust. Please babyyy" lisa could not control herself to cry..

"I'm afraid lilyy" jennie said and lisa kissed her to shut her up, and not wanting to hear negative things anymore..

Lisa was a bit disappointed about jennie, The girl used to be a fighter and not easily give up. So She thinks that they'll have to start over again and able to restore their broken hearts from Losing their child...

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pewwwngkk HAHHAHA. Special chapter last.