Tired Of It|TK

9

I'M SORRY

A groan went past Taehyung's lips, as the loud ringing of the entrance door woke the brunet up from sleep.

Once he got to his right mind, his eyes widened though. It must be Minhyun and he knows he needs to hurry up, or he will be mad.

Taehyung quickly got up, but the moment he did, his eyes fell back to the couch, wide opened. Because laying on the other side, with one arm behind his head slept Jeon Jeongguk.

"Fuck," Taehyung whispered. Fuck, firstly because how the fuck did Jeongguk and him fall asleep on the couch and fuck, secondly because someone was ringing the doorbell and it's one-hundered-percent-ly his oh so lovely boyfriend.

He'd freak out when he sees Jeongguk.

Panicking, Taehyung quickly shook Jeongguk awake. "H-hey, please wake up," he pleaded. Jeongguk opened his eyes, looking around in confusion. "What's wrong?"

"I'm sorry, but please hide upstairs, I think Minhyun is here, he can't know you slept over-

The ringing on the door mad Taehyung flinch and he began shivering. Jeongguk looked at his shaking hands, trying to hold a scoff back as he hummed. "Got it, go open the door for your boyfriend, Beautiful."

Taehyung glared at him because of the way he said the word 'boyfriend' and rushed him to go upstairs before going to open the door for Minhyun.

He composed himself a little, straightening his hair and then opened up, forcing his by now well-trained fake smile on. "Hey, Hyun," he said, voice too sweet in internal panic. Fuck, he thought, hoping Minhyun won't get suspicious.

He didn't, just leaned down to peck Taehyung's lips. "Why did it take so long?" He asked and Taehyung gulped. "I-I just woke up, I'm sorry."

Minhyun sighed. "It's fine. How are you?"

"Just a little tired," Taehyung answered, stretching his back. "Euhm, w-why are you here?"

Minhyun gave him a small smile. "I thought we could meet up with Jaedong and Jisang again."

Taehyung's smile dropped. Not his friends again.

"Well, a-actually, I told you that me and Jeongguk still weren't completely finished with the project (we haven't really started yet), so I told Jeongguk to come over later again..."

Minhyun raised an eyebrow. "Again?"

Taehyung nodded, wishing that Minhyun just accepts it and leaves. "I'm sorry, I can't go with you-

"You will come with me Taehyung. That fucking project isn't important and neither is this Jeon boy!"

Taehyung flinched when Minhyun suddenly raised his voice, his hands beginning to shake again. "H-Hyun.. the project is important and what do you have against Jeongguk? He is really nice-

"Taehyung," he interrupted sternly. Again. Always. He always interrupts him, barely even lets him speak out one whole sentence.

"I love you, okay? You're mine and I hate the thought of you being alone with some other guy!"

Taehyung scoffed. "He is my project partner!"

"Only because he was faster! You were supposed to be my partner!" Minhyun defended and Taehyung wanted to mock him, spit in his face and tell him how weak of an effort he made- just to provoke him. But he held it in.

He calmed down and steadied his voice. "Hyun, I'm sorry, okay? I will go with you next time, I promise. Me and Jeongguk will just finish the project and then we're done. Nothing else, nothing more. T-trust me."

Taehyung can't even trust himself around Jeongguk.

Minhyun sighed, hugging Taehyung. "I trust you, Tae. It's him I don't really trust, but I know you, you won't let anything happen."

You don't know me at all, Taehyung thought, hesitantly hugging Minhyun back.

All these gestures, hugs, kisses, sweet words coming from Taehyung were all fake, all acted. He hated it.

"Thank you. And I'm sorry, have fun with your friends.." he whispered, thoughts suddenly drifting to his hug with Jeongguk last evening. Which felt thousand times better than the hug right now.

Taehyung internally cried.

"See you at school tomorrow then," Minhyun said and Taehyung nodded as they finally cut of from the hug and watched him leave, before he closed the door and stepped inside again.

His hands were still shaking though, they had been the whole time.

He flinched when he turned around and Jeongguk suddenly was right in front of him. He looked wide-eyed at him and gulped. "I'm s-sorry for waking you up like that, but-

"Why do you always apologize for everything?" Jeongguk mumbled, his eyes wandering to Taehyung's trembling hands, making him feel mad inside.

"I'm so..." Taehyung began, but stopped himself and locked his eyes with Jeongguk's.

The older sighed softly. "Not everything is your fault Taehyung, you shouldn't be apologizing for literally living. You shouldn't be forced to constantly have to explain yourself whenever you do something... You don't deserve that.."

Taehyung blinked, feeling tears stinging in his eyes. He endured it for so long, it is beginning to break him.

"I-I hate it... I hate him... everything."

Jeongguk watched him for a few seconds, observing his shaking hands, trembling lips and with pain-filled eyes, before deciding to comfort him. He slowly walked to him and cautiously wrapped his arms around him, saying nothing.

Taehyung just let him do it, as he softly began letting everything out. He didn't say it out loud, but he wished Jeongguk would hold him closer, just like yesterday, tighter- his embrace was just so comforting.

Soft sobs filled the completely tranquil room and eventually Taehyung couldn't hold back anymore and wrapped his arms around Jeongguk too, pulling him closer himself.

The older was surprised, but let Taehyung do it. He pushed the thoughts that kept asking him why aside, wanting to just be there for him.

After some time, the younger let go of Jeongguk and looked up to him. "I s-soaked your shirt, I-I'm s-

"Don't," Jeongguk stopped him in a hushed whisper, "don't apologize. It's okay."

Taehyung wiped his tears, but felt like crying once again. Why was Jeongguk like this? why did he understand him better than Taehyung understands himself? And why does he feel so warm, contented and comfortable with it?

Jeongguk looked into Taehyung's eyes, watching the younger just look up to him, obviously in thoughts. He wondered what he was thinking, while looking at him.

He cleared his throat, making Taehyung stop his staring, cheeks now tinted in a bright pink. Jeongguk squinted his eyes and smirked amused. "What were you thinking?"

Taehyung blushed even more and wanted to turn around, but at the same time didn't want to lose the warmth of Jeongguk's arms around him. "N-not much."

Raising an eyebrow, Jeongguk tilted his head closer to Taehyung's, making the younger suck in a deep breath as his eyes for a split second fell to Jeongguk's lips, and how close they were, and back up.

"Are you sure?" The dark haired asked and Taehyung quickly nodded. "I was thinking of nothing.."

Jeongguk's eyes also went to Taehyung's lips for a second, but he backed away again, before anything careless happens.

"If that's the case." He let go and Taehyung almost whimpered at the loss of warmth. "Let's get working on the project." Jeongguk looked to Taehyung's hands, a fond expression forming seeing them not shake anymore.

Soon they sat on the table, planning, working, painting and Taehyung was so damn thankful that Jeongguk didn't spoke about the topic anymore.

Author
someone buy me energy please :,)