Poetry Collection: Volume 2

Grandad, I Still Need You!

The years have long but passed since you left, 

Since the life in your eyes had disappeared, 

Four years gone since you took your final breath. 

I think of you often hoping for your guidance, 

Hoping i could have you near. 

The funny thing is, although i've always needed you, 

I find myself talking to you more. 

Asking for your guidance, asking for your help, 

Telling you my life's little inconvenience as if you were right here. 

I always loved and cherished you when you were alive, 

I always looked up to everything you did and how you built your life. 

But yet although how strange this must sound, 

I look up to you even more than i once did. 

I look at where i am in life and i think of you as i go, 

I remind myself of how we are connected and i'll never let you go. 

Your connected with the words i write, because i gained that skill from you, 

Your connected with my diy, because i loved to watch you work and build away. 

My heart it often still breaks for you, wishing you were here, 

Wishing i could talk to you and speak about the things i hold so dear. 

I often wish i did it sooner, that i had heart to hearts with you, 

But i was a scared young person who was afraid she'd face rejection 

From another person she loved so dear. 

I want to build a treasure chest, i want one built of wood, 

Your the first person i would go to , to teach me all the right ways. 

Grandad, was my first thought when the project came to mind, 

But Grandad, you've long gone and passed, you're no longer by my side. 

I wish this could have been our project because i would have adored to be by your side, 

I would have looked on at your eagerly, happy to share this moment with you in my life. 

But with you gone my plans must change, I know i'll find another way,

I won't give up this little dream even if it works out horrendously.

I miss not having you around, i think of you most days, 

You probably didn't expect it but it's the truth either way. 

I miss you dear, i miss you most, 

I miss my grandad  who loved me dearly, who loved me kind, 

Who reminded me someone else loves me in my life.