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where do i throw away the love u gave me?

i'll tell you what i've been thinking all this time, between you who's moving forward and me who's stopped, what should i do to fill the gap that won't close? i knew from the very start that this is how we would end, i prepared for the day you would walk away, i told my heart to be ready because everything can shake and shatter anytime.

i was naive.

now that everything fell apart, now that i finally reached the hopeless end of my hopeless unrequited feelings for you, i suddenly want to try and turn back time, when you were still only a friend who i argue with almost everyday.

but do i really want that?

perhaps, i never really regret falling for someone like you-let me rephrase that- for you, in particular. i have a feeling that no matter how many days, weeks, months or maybe even after years passes, i'd still look back to the strings of memories of us attached in the back of my mind, and my heart.

the people around me keeps telling me that it's time to let you go, to let go of the feeble rope between us two. yes, i am okay, but, it doesn't mean that i no longer hope it's you and me at the end of this long run.

it terrifies me that i still love you, it's that one thing that splits me apart each and everyday. because when i say those three words, they are forever. and i am afraid that i still have forever to go, and i will be in love alone.

still here,

seah.