Accident | Eren x reader

Chapter 40 | Green

disclaimer:  before you read, all 3 chapters are from Eren's pov, I'll be starting the pov from when eren leave's the sushi Restaurant after y/n's date with jean, enjoy <3 

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After I left the sushi restaurant I dropped Yelena off and drove back to campus. I couldn't get y/n off my mind. I kept licking my lips thinking of the taste of her. I know what I did was wrong call it pride, I just needed to do it before jean. She probably hates me. Why the fuck can't I stay away.

Soon as I got back to campus and inside my dorm, I threw my clothes off and jumped in the shower. "Jean's probably touching her right now, at least I did it first". I got out of the shower and cleaned up my room before I was gonna get in bed.

About to clean my desk I seen the painting I did of y/n, it was one of my best works yet. She really is my favorite art piece and I hate it.

I thought about the taste of her agian. I heard a knock on my door I put the canvas back down and walked to my door. Once I opened it I saw y/n "you came back for more?".

"No fuck you". She said.

"She's mad," I thought to myself. 

"Your mad," I said.

She walked past me into my dorm. "Shut the door," she said. "I can't tell if she wants more or she's gonna yell at me". I thought. I shut the door and walked towards her.

"Okay, you're sending me mixed singles here? Am I gonna get yelled at or am I gonna rail the fuck outta you?"

"I hate you! and I mean it"

"So yelling it is"

"I really need this to be the last conversation the last moment the last everything with you".

"Why?"

"Because eren, your not good! for me and I wanna choose jean".

"Choose jeans? What's that mean?"

"It means I wanna be with jean and I can't have you messing this up anymore. Because now I have to live with the guilt I have for what we did in the bathroom."

"Hey, you straight out told me you didn't wanna say no". 

"I know what I said! And I don't regret it either in fact I would do it all over again if I could! And that's why I can't be around you anymore".

I sat down on my bed to let this all process, in my head I was still thinking about her telling me I'm not good for her "So jean" I said.

"Yeah".

I didn't want her with jean for some reason I hated even the idea of it. "You shouldn't go to jean-"

"Why? Why eren, tell me why, give me a reason I shouldn't go for jean, cause trust me I'm listening".

The only reason I had was I wanted her to be with me, but I can't have her.

I stood silent and stood looking at her. I knew she was mad but I couldn't keep myself from admiring her, I wanted to just pick up a pencil and draw.

"Tell me eren," she said.

"I don't have one," I whispered.

"What?" she said.

I started to get frustrated, with the thought I can't have her, I don't know what kinda answer is she looking for.

"I don't fucking have one y/n, go pick jean, what else can I tell you". I said.