Accident | Eren x reader

Chapter 18 | Strange Feeling

I met with ymir outside her dorm and left with her and historia to the mall. We shopped around mostly following historia around as she walked into almost every shop. after being on our feet we sat down at a table Ymir was laid back into the chair historia was sitting up straight I found it funny from how opposite they are.

"Are you finally ready to talk now?" Ymir asked.

Yes, I am.

Go on. she said. 

"I'm gonna start off with the strange feeling first," I said. 

"Stange feeling?" Historia asked.

"Yeah,"

Is it like a gut feeling? Ymir asked.

No, it's, I don't know what it is, to be honest, that's why it's strange.

"When did it start?" Ymir asked. 

Let me think. It was Before the funeral/

Okay, and when does it appear.

"At random times, I just know once I seen eren it went away".

Was it like a worried feeling? historia asked. 

"No, not that".

We need more details, ymir said.

"Okay there are words," I said. 

Words? historia said. 

Yes, how do I explain this, it's like I know what they are but I can't say them because I don't know what they are? If that makes sense.

"Okay so let me get this straight you wanna say words to him but can't because you don't know the words and it has something to do with the feeling. Ymir said. 

"Yes".

Let me ask you something when you're not with eren does that feeling stay with you. Ymir said.

"Yes."

But once you see him it's gone and when you see him is that when you wanna say those mysterious words.

"Yes".

Ymir and Historia looked at each other like they knew something. "What is it?" I ask.

Ymir sighed. I hate to tell you this y/n but you miss Yeager. That's the strange feeling.

"What! No ymir I don't miss- oh my god I miss eren". I said. 

Ymir and Historia laughed. "What's so funny?" I ask.

You actually admitted to something that involves eren.

"This isn't funny Ymir, I can't believe me out of all people miss eren. How could I! Ugh I hate myself".

No, no don't hate yourself. It's okay you miss a version of eren, not the f boy version it happens" historia said. 

Can't wait till she admits she likes him. 

No! Now that is something that won't happen, I hate Yeager and I'm sticking with that till I die. Maybe I do miss him, and our moments and watching the sunset with him and seeing the pretty colors glow on his face and the way he can be so sweet and just a eren you won't even recognize. But liking him? Never. Couldn't be me.

Ymir sighed "whatever you say".

So what do I do? i asked. 

What can you do? Ymir said. 

"I don't wanna miss him anymore how do I stop Ymir". Ymir shrugged her shoulders "This is something I can't fix sorry, oh shit y/n don't look" Ymir said as her eyes looked to the side of me.