(DISCONTINUED)American Boy || Platonic Beeduo Highschool AU

12: Nightmare

Hey guys it's me :O this is one of my favorite chapters so far I think. 

also tysm for 4k reads I really appreciate it. 

ok uh have fun besties (or don't idgaf)

TW/CWs: Bullying (how tf do I say "mean words"), panic attack, violence

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Ranboo was sitting in the middle of a field next to Tubbo, who was laughing at something the tall boy had said. Ranboo smiled softly at the brunette.

He didn't know where he was or how exactly he had gotten here, but was glad Tubbo was next to him. That was all that really mattered.

"I'm glad you're here," Ranboo said, "Thank you for being my friend when nobody else wanted to even talk to me," the taller boy continued. He smiled up at Tubbo, and was taken aback by the harsh glint in his grey-green eyes. His face was blank.

Ranboo's stomach twisted. Something was wrong. Very wrong.

"Tubbo? You ok?" Ranboo asked carefully. Tubbo laughed shortly.

"Did you really think I was your friend?" he said sharply.

"...what?" Ranboo said softly, his eyes widening.

"Did you honestly think that I would like someone like you?" Tubbo said, laughing coldly. It felt like an iron hand was squeezing Ranboo's throat. He couldn't breathe. This must be a joke.

"You're kidding, right? There's no way. What about in the bathroom, after school, the movie, in the street... you helped me. You were there," Ranboo said, on the verge of tears.

"You're fucking pathetic," Tubbo snapped, standing up, "You're a crybaby, you're ugly as shit, you're a burden, you're selfish, you can't do anything right," Tubbo said, each word like a punch to Ranboo's gut.

It was like Tubbo knew Ranboo's worst fears and insecurities and threw them back at him. Ranboo felt a tear slide down his cheek. This couldn't be happening.

"Tubbo, I-"

"It was all a prank. Everyone was in on it. Dream, George, Sapnap, Tommy, Wilbur, Techno, Jack, even Niki. Everyone you thought was a friend never actually cared about you," Tubbo said, his face stone cold.

"W-what? You're lying, there's no way..." Ranboo's words died in his throat. Of course, they all hated him. How could he have been so stupid to trust a group of strangers in one day?

Tubbo was right. He was worthless.

Ranboo looked up, and his eyes widened. Tubbo was surrounded by people. Ranboo could see Dream and his friends... but also countless more. They were all people that had made Ranboo feel awful for existing.

He saw bullies from his old school, random people on the street who had laughed at him, his ex volleyball coach.

His dad.

Ranboo's breath quickened, and his palms started to sweat. His head was spinning and his throat felt like it was closing up. How could Tubbo betray him? He thought they were friends.

He was so stupid.

Suddenly, every person in the field advanced on him. The last thing he saw was Tubbo's foot kicking into his stomach before he closed his eyes. He felt dozens of hands and feet on him, punching and kicking, yanking his hair, pulling on his limbs.

They were going to tear him apart.

Ranboo's eyes shot open and he sat up in a cold sweat. His breathing was heavy as his eyes darted around the room.

Drawings on the wall.

A PC and a desk.

Polaroid pictures.

Fairy lights.

Tubbo sleeping next to him.

Tubbo.

It was a dream.

Ranboo put his head in his hands and started to cry. It had seemed so real. Did Tubbo and his friend really think that way about him? Did Tubbo really think he was an ugly, worthless, idiot? Was their whole friendship fake?

The thought only made Ranboo cry harder, but he tried to keep it down. He didn't want to wake up Tubbo.

It didn't work.

Ranboo flinched when he felt a hand on his shoulder, and opened his eyes only to be met with Tubbo's own worried grey-green ones.

"Boo? What's wrong?" the brunette asked, and Ranboo's mind couldn't help but travel back to the dream at the sight of Tubbo.

The harshness of Tubbo's words and the cold glint in his eyes.

The feeling of hundreds of hands trying to break him.

The sting of betrayal and lies.

Ranboo started to hyperventilate, wrapping his arms around himself.

Tubbo wordlessly hugged Ranboo, and the tall boy leaned into the touch and buried his head in Tubbo's chest.

Ranboo inhaled, and let out a broken sob, his quiet cries now audible to Tubbo, and it broke the shorter boy's heart.

He pulled Ranboo closer, running a hand through the taller one's hair.

"It's ok Boo, I got you. You're safe, you're ok, I"m here. I'm right here," Tubbo whispered, rubbing his hand in circles on Ranboo's back.

Eventually, Ranboo calmed down and sat up, not making eye contact.

"I-I'm sorry," Ranboo said, his voice hoarse from crying.

I'm just proving my dream right. I'm pathetic, I can't do anything myself, I'm-

"Don't be sorry Boo, it's ok. D'you wanna talk?" Tubbo said, taking Ranboo's hand and squeezing it gently. Ranboo squeezed back.

"Not now, but maybe later. It was just a nightmare," Ranboo paused, "A bad one. A really, really bad one," Ranboo said, his voice shaky. Tubbo hugged Ranboo again, resting his head on his shoulder. Tubbo's thumb rubbed comforting circles in Ranboo's palm.

They stayed like this for a while, in comfortable silence, the only sound in the room being their quiet breathing and the occasional sniffle from Ranboo.

"Can we go back to sleep? I'm tired," Ranboo mumbled after a minute, lying back down onto the bed.

"Of course Boo. G'night, I love you," Tubbo said sleepily, pulling the blankets back over them from where they had been thrown to the side of the bed.

"Love you too, Bo. Thank you," Ranboo said, snuggling into the brunette's side, tucking his head against his chest.

Tubbo smiled softly and wrapped his arms around Ranboo. Soon they were both asleep.

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