Just Friends

2.5 Blame

15/07/2017

"How far... Is your new place?"

"about... 30 minutes away from my mums place" Niall said drinking some tea

Dylan sighed "Just be glad I'm doing this for you Niall... I didn't want to leave Lou and Liam"

Liam frowned "I haven't seen Louis in a while"

Niall rested his head on the table "Because louis is refusing to see Zayn like that... He used to visit Zayn every 3 days but now he just... He can't go through with it"

Liam frowned "Niall-"

"Why didn't you ask him for an explanation?" Liam frowned "I know, I know you didn't know that this could've happened but WHY? Why would you just- why would you believe timmy out of all people? You know he likes you and you still believed him?!"

"Niall stop!" Dylan whisperer yelled but Niall shook his head

"There was a chance Zayn wouldn't be in that coma right now because he would've had you! He always knew he'd have you and the second he didn't he almost fucking dies!"

The silence between the 3 suddenly appeared, Liam was looking down at his untouched plate and it just hit Niall what he just said

"Liam, I wasn't-"

"No... You're right" He whispered

"No, no I'm wrong. I'm so wrong, Liam-"

Liam looked at his phone "I have to go to the hospital anyways" he smiled "I'll see you next time, yeah?"

Liam stood up, he threw some pounds on the table before he poxketd his hands and walked out of the restaurant

"I know you're hurt and all. But blamming liam when he already blames himself isn't the correct choice. You know that Niall and you lashing out on him because you want someone to blame wasn't it"

"I know, it's just-"

"Don't try to make up an excuse... We were the only 2 he'd talk to."

16/07/2017

Liam sighed and opened the door when someone knocked on it

"Hey mama T"

"Hi liam... I need to go buy groceries but Aisha isn't feeling too well... Mind watching her for me- if you're busy-"

"No it's ok. I'm home alone anyways, mumma and dad went to a doctors appointment"

"Thank you liam"

"anytime..."

"I know you'll take good care of her"

Liam smiled and and took the her, she immediately clung onto him and he kissed her head

"Liam" Liam looked up and nodded "None of us blame you...."

Liam stayed quiet then took a deep breath "I blame me..."

~~~~~

"Your baba is with your brother... Your mama is getting groceries. I'm probably the most boring person to you right now"

Liam said and hummed when she just continued to play with her teddy bear

"Yeah..."

Liam sighed and rubber her back "You're almost 4 months old... I see Julia every day and I still can't believe it... It just hit me how fast time is passing"

Liam frowned, he picked her up. He kissed her head and sighed

"I'm sorry that Zayn won't be here to witness it..." Liam sighed

"How about some lunch... Then your mama will be back and your baba and I will switch places, he'll be with you and I'll be with your big brother..."

~~~~~

Liam opened the door to Zayns hospital room and sighed

"Do I have a story to tell you..." Liam said taking the seat beside the bed and holding Zayns hand

"I was babysitting your sister today and I gave her lunch... She threw up all over me, then mumma and dad came back with Julia... She threw up over me as well. So 3 showers later. I finally feel clean and don't smell like baby throw up" Liam said with a smile before his smile fell

"Nialls been calling me... I don't want to answer, I know I should've asked you but... Having someone say it to my face that it's my fault just- it just hits harder..." Liam mumbled and wiped the tear that slid down his cheek

"But hey! You'll wake up and everything will get better again-almost better... Hazza may have left, but at least you'll still be ok" Liam said taking a deep breath

"It'll be alright. It will! You'll wake up, you'll graduate, you'll get into uni, you'll-... You'll become a surgeon. You'll be saving lives Loki..." liam said and rested his head beside Zayn's hand

"I'll be here, waiting for you..."

~~~~~

"keep waiting for me... Please"