24/07/2017 3am...
The field was quiet, Louis was standing in the middle of it all alone, the ball at his feet. He wasn't wearing any shoes and it looked like it was going to rain
But he couldn't do anything.
He felt more alone than ever before, the past 24 days have been hell for him. His head flooding with words he can't speak, his eyes filled with tears he can't let out.
"Zayn..." he said with a small whispered, wishing his now best friend would hear and would suddenly appear in front of him "I need help..."
Louis sat on the floor and looked at the ball, he traced the tattoo and let out a sigh when it started to rain over him
He sat there for a minute with his eyes closed, suddenly the rain stopped hitting him and he opened his eyes and saw an umbrella over his head
"Cmon..."
"What are you doing here?"
"Getting you, you need help"
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Liam woke up when he felt someone shake his shoulders, he opened his eyes and furrowed his brows when he saw Dylan
"D... What time is it?"
They gave liam a small smile "About 7am... Visiting hours just started and we just came in"
"We?"
Dylan nodded towards where Niall, and Louis were standing
"We are here..."
Liam looked at zayn as his eyes welled up" He isn't... "
~~~~~
"I started having nightmares..." Liam whispered and Dylan frowned
They both were sitting in the hospital cafeteria, Dylan decided to let them and Liam could have some food that they good from the fast food restaurant down the street while the others stayed with zayn
"Want to talk, Payno?"
"He hates me... He doesnt want me in his life anymore..."Liam's eyes welled up" He looses his memory" liam took a deep breath. "They keep on getting worse... I wake up panicked, I wake up feeling like I can't breath in the middle of the night. I feel guilty, I feel so guilty and I can't help it..."
"Liam... Nothing I will say can change how you feel... But..." Dylan put their hand on Liams "Zayn doesn't blame you. Trust me when I saw, Zayn would love you, no matter what. The only people to blame here are Timmy and Matt, they're both in custody right now. He will wake up liam. And the first thing he'll ask about-if you aren't by his side- is you... "
Liam nodded and Dylan gave him a small smile" You haven't been taking care of yourself Liam..."
Liam shrugged" I'm hoping to join him... So maybe I can apologise"
"we don't want you to join him... We want you here with us and witness him joining us again"
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They knew it wasn't happy, it was all an act, the tear tracks running through his face proved so
Whenever he was with them he'd smile and laugh, but whenever he wasn't he would either stare at a wall and quickly wipe his face
His nightmares kept coming and they started to wake him up a lot
He'd wake up and look at Zayn, look at the heart monitor, then check that Zayn is still alive.
It was pushing him down more and more and he couldn't handle it
Every breath he'd take became a misery, every step he'd walk became a nightmare, every time he'd open his eyes became a curse
Every meal he'd eat became harder to swallow and looking out the window became an accomplishment
He's so tired of it... He's exhausted and he can't talk it anymore
30/07/2017
Liam sat by Zayn's bed and looked at the doctor who was unplugging all the machines
Once they were all off, Liam's eyes welled up as he held onto Zayn's hand
"I'm sorry..."
Liam was about to let go of Zayn's hand when he felt a tight squeeze
Liam turned around and his eyes widened seeing Zayn's eyes slowly open
Liam kept a tight grip on Zayn's hand, Zayn's eyes kept looking around before they landed on Liam, his grip on Liam's hand loosened
"Zayn say something..." Zayn's mouth opened and closed, he looked at his hand which Liam was holding "please Zayn say something..."
"W-who are you?"
Liam woke up with a gasp, he was taking multiple deep breaths and felt like he couldn't breath
He felt like all the air was pulled out of his lungs and he couldn't get any back
He crouched down and gripped his hair, his vision was getting blurry before he squeezed his eyes shut
He felt someone's hand land on the back of his neck before the other went to his cheek
His face lifted up but his eyes stayed closed
"I can't take it... I'm scared"
"There's nothing to be scared of Li... Open your eyes for me"
"I don't want to see a world where he isn't awake anymore..."
"Look at me Liam..."
Liam opened his eyes, they were still blurry and tears were falling down his face. A thumb went down to his cheekbone and wiped his tears
When the blurriness somewhat faded he covered his face when he realized It was Zayn who was holding him
He covered his face and shook his head
"PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LET THIS NOT BE A DREAM!"
Liam stood up and hugged zayn tightly, Zayn pulled liam down onto the bed and hugged him tightly and kissed his forehead over and over again
"please please please...." liam tightened his arms around zayn "Please not a dream. Please not a dream... Please be real. Please all be real..."
Liam kept on chanting please with his eyes closed, Zayns arms only tightened around Liam
Liam looked at zayn before they rested their foreheads together
"Don't hate me... If this is real please don't hate me"
"It's real... And I could never ever hate you"
Liam kept looking into Zayn's eyes as Zayn was looking right back into his
Liam's put one of his hands on Zayn's cheek. It was quiet and not a sound was heard between the 2
The position they were now in lasted a second before their lips collided
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Just Friends
Fanfiction"I know this is bad... but fuck all I want is you... I love you. Please love me back... more than you already do" "You don't know how much I love you and that scares me"
