Marrying Him

Chapter 6

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PHOEBE'S POV

"Don't mind him.He's like that but he really loves you"she wink.

Umiling lang ako."I doubt it.Baka sobrang hate ako nun"pabiro kong saad para ipakitang okay lang ako.

Napailing lang din si Reign pero may ngiti sa labi,makahulugang ngiti.Pinagsawalang-bahala ko nalang.

"Anyway,may lakad ka ba bukas?"tanong ni Reign pagkaraan.

Napatingin ako sa kanya at umiling."Bakit?"

Ngumiti ito."Yayayain sana kitang mag shopping.Bukas na ako aalis patungong Australia,so g ka?"yaya nito.

Napaturo ako sa sarili ko."Ako?Bakit ako ang niyayaya mo e ang dami mo namang friends na pwedeng yayain?"naguguluhan kong tanong.I mean,ngayon pa lang kami nagkausap ng ganito katagal though we knew each other.We're really not friends and not close,we're just colleagues or acquaintances.

Hindi din naman ako 'yong tipo ng babae na kapag may nagugustuhang iba iyong mahal ko e susugurin ko 'yong babae.....i think that's just too immature.Kontento na ako sa pagsunod-sunod lang,kahit pa nagmumukha akong baliw na stalker.....baliw naman talaga ako at stalker.Leshe!Ang gulo ko ha.

Nagkibit-balikat lang ito pero ang weird naman tumingin."Basta----i mean i want to be your friend kahit after nito ay hindi na tayo magkikita.Just say yes Phoebe,promise hindi mo pagsisisihan"sabay ngiti ng makahulugan.

Napayakap ako sa aking sarili."Gosh you're creepy!"napalabi ako.

Mahinhin itong napatawa and really....she looks like an angel!She's the epitome of beauty,indeed!

"Silly.Basta susunduin kita dito at 9am so be ready okay?"anito at iniwan ako sa dining.

Napailing ako pagkuwan ay napabuntong-hininga.Maybe i should give it a try,since i also wants to be friends with her......even if it's kinda late.

Napalinga-linga ako.Nasaan kaya si tita?Hay sana okay lang siya....nung una ay balak ko pang maghanap ng info. about sa sakit niya but i got scared.I know cancer is dangerous and i don't want to know how it's gonna kill tita very soon.Kung sana ay pumayag si tita na magpagamot ay tutulungan ko pa siya,pero buo na ang desisyon niyang sundan si tito.Until now i can't get over it,of all illness why brain cancer?There's a lot of questions running inside my head but i kept quiet,asking a lot of questions sometimes can get the situation worse.Asking is sometimes scary.

Nung sinabi ni tita ang tungkol sa sakit niya ay sobra akong nagulat,hindi ko kailan man naisip na magkakasakit si tita at cancer pa.Then suddenly,she ask me about marrying Calix....then seducing and offering myself to him.If you'll gonna ask me why did i follow and say yes?Then,it's because i don't want to feel guilty.It's because i know if i didn't follow tita i will carry the guilt and conscience will kill me.It's okay if some will think i'm crazy and desperate or dumb or stupid or anything,it's okay if Calix will hate me more and will be mad at me more...i don't care.As long as,guilt won't penetrate my whole being again....as long as guilt won't take over me again.If guilt consume you,you will be depressed.....and i don't want to be depressed again.I don't want to be in darkness anymore,it's stressing and making me crazy.I followed what tita said because she said it's the only way she can die peacefully,you know,i hated being responsible for a thing but that moment tita ask for a 'favour'....i feel like i'm the responsible one at nakasalalay sakin ang pananahimik ng kaluluwa ni tita pag namatay siya.Tita's always there for me when i needed her,she became my mother and i promised i will do anything for her.

I don't want to go back to the past where i was caged with nothing but darkness.I don't want to suffer and feel the same pain again.