Marrying Him

Chapter 11---part 1

Unedited.

Phoebe's POV

I was busy battling with my mind if I should just sleep or wait for Calix as I lay in bed.

Leshe.

Hindi ko alam na ang gulo pala.I suddenly wonder if what is Calix thinking right now,did he regret marrying me?Because me,I don't regret marrying him cause it's the most beautiful thing that ever happened to my life even if I know that it will also be heart breaking.

I suddenly wonder how does he feel towards me now.I wonder if he's considering about us,considering to fix our stained relationship.I wonder if he'll accept the baby,our baby.

I don't really know what happened why or when we began to drift apart.We were casual back then,when we were kids.We were even playing his toys or my toys,he will go with me to the park when I want to play there because tita and mom won't let me go there without Calix.We were close back then,pinagtatanggol niya ako sa mga umaaway sakin,hinahatid-sundo niya ako sa class room at palagi kaming magkasabay mag-lunch.

But when we turned 13,something happened.After that,he started avoiding me.

If I tried talking to him,he will avoid me more so I decided to just distanced my self so he will not get tired avoiding me,I decided to avoid him too.That's the time I realized my feelings for him,at the age of 13 I already fell in love.

I feel so hurt and sad seeing the person I love slowly drifting away from me.It's like I was breaking into pieces,at such a young age I already experience being heart broken.

It's still fine with me that Calix was avoiding me because he still talk to me,sometimes.But when we turned 15,he completely avoided me,no glance,no talk,no everything.It's like we're a stranger to each other, it's like I'm invisible and he can't see me.

I once again,experienced my second heart break with the same person as the first.

Even if I don't know what did I do that made him avoid me,I still choose to understand him.I always miss him,I miss the days when we play at the park,I miss the time that he will fetch me at lunch so that we can eat together,I miss everything we do.

I just look at him from afar,silently supporting and loving him.I became contented at that.

When we turned 18,he met Reign and started pursuing her.And before we turned 19,they became official.

I was so jealous,my young heart was so broken for the third time that I did planned to ruin their relationship,but before I could execute my plan Calix caught me.

That's where he started getting mad at me,he started making me go away from him like he was disgusted of me,he started looking at me with hatred and anger in his cold eyes.

Did something happened to him that days?But the doctor said he was fine.

Bakit naging ganoon si Calix sakin?May nagawa kaya akong mali?Nagalit ko ba siya o may nagawa ba akong kasalanan?Sobrang laki ba nang kasalanan ko at hanggang ngayon hindi parin niya ako mapatawad?

What happened to us Calix?What happened to you?What really happen to you that days?I hope they did not do something to you,because if they did,I will be guilty again,my conscience will kill me and my demons will surely come back again.

I miss him.I miss---------

"Mrs. Gonzales?Phoebe?"rinig kong sabi nang kung sino mula sa labas.

I immediately stand up and walked towards the door,I opened it and I saw Draco.

Inalalayan ni Draco si Calix dahil mukhang isang tapik nalang dito ay matutumba na ito.Calix is very very drunk.

"Can you help me lay this bastard to your bed?"tanong ni Draco na parang nakukunsumi sa kaibigan.Hindi ko alam kung matatawa o maawa ako sa kaniya.