Dear Forsythe,
Fp, I feel like im dying, I cant handle this pain anymore ... Polly died, I found her dead in a trunk. I have failed. I always felt like the only reason I was put on this earth was to protect my children, and I failed. A mother is supposed to die before her children, a mother is supposed to raise a child so that when the mother dies she can leave with knowing that her child doesn't need them anymore and that they are strong and happy, Im supposed to die before her Fp. She needed me when she left the world, she was scared, she was in pain. Its not fare. How can I continue living knowing that the child that I carried and brought into the world The sweet sweet child I raised, is dead. I dont think I can do this without her, but I have to stay here for Betty and for the twins, there the only ones keeping me here, and you ofcourse . . . Even though we haven't talked in months. Fp I miss you... you dont have to write back, I just needed to tell you this.
Signed Alice
