All she could hear was high pitched screams
There she was lying on a bed, in a cold room of the sisters of quite mercy
The baby boy she had just brought into the world was getting cleaned off by the nuns
"Google job dear" Sister Rosalie said. She was the only nun that made Alice feel safe "He's beautiful"
Alices eyes widened as she tried to regulate her breathing "he?" She gleamed "Its a boy?" She croaked
Sister Rosalie nodded happily
A few seconds later the nun brought the boy to his mother
"Here you go sweetheart" Rosalie said kindly
The moment he was layed in her arms she felt overwhelmed with emotion. She pulled him close to her chest "I love you so much" she sniffled "Im gonna give you the world my precious baby boy" she kisses the top of the boys head
Everything in that moment was perfect, the only thing missing was him.
Hours later, Alice was in a clean bed sitting up against the head board craddeling her son, she knew that they were gonna come and get him soon, she had stupidly agreed to Hals suggestions of a closed adoption
She was scared, but she knew she couldn't give him up, he was her whole world, her entire reason for living
A knock on the door was heard and when she looked up she saw sister Rosalie standing there with a sad smile on her face, she stepped into the room more "Alice.... honey its time"
Alice looked up, petrified. She drew her son closer to her chest to protect him "No"
Rosalie stepped closer "Alice I know this is hard but-"
"NO, he's my son. I can't- I won't! Give him away" Alice croaked with tears threatening to spill, she looked deeply into the nuns eyes "Please, don't take him away" She begged quietly
Rosalie stayed quiet for a moment, she looked down at the infant who was so content in his mothers arms, she could feel it deep in her core that he was ment to stay there, where he belongs
Rosalie looked back at Alice "Okay" She said calmly, watching as a huge smile crept up on the young mothers face
"Really?" Alice said happily "Thankyou"
Rosalie smiled but just as she was about to say somthing there was another knock at the door. Then Hal stepped into the room
Rosalie Looked between the two "Ill give you two some privacy" she politely excused herself
When she left Hal slowly creeper closer
"What are you doing here?" Alice asked
Hal sat at the edge of the bed "I heard glyou had the baby and I wanted to see how you were" he pauses "So how are you?"
She looks down at her baby "Im really good" she beams "Hes so amazing, I can't belive it, he's like a human form of actual sunshine" she giggles happily "I've been thinking about names, and I really like Charles, It sounds very fitting for him and we can call him Charlie untill he's older. Oh! And I was thinking about it and I need a car seat because I don't have one to take him home in and I need a crib and-"
"Whoa whoa whoa Alice-" Hal was taken aback "Your giving him up remember? We decided on it together" he said firmly "Your not bringing him home"
Alices face twisted "But, I love him so much, you just don't understand the moment I held him everything disappeared. It was a magical moment. And I know I need to keep him"
Hal couldn't belive it "Alice. We already decided to give him up for adoption, we are way to young to be parents. We can't provide for him, and he'd probably hate us because we won't be able to give him everything he deserves, I mean come on, He has a Southside runaway for a mother"
Alices eyes fill with tears she really felt the need to keep him but what if Hal was right "You really don't want to keep him?" She asked quietly looking down at her beautiful Charlie
Hal looked cold "No, we can't" he said firmly
Alice looked up "Do you wanna hold him?" She asked softly
Hal looked at the boy then back at Alice. He didnt say anything he just extended his arms
Alice thought that if he just held Charles then he could feel what she felt. Even though he really wasn't the father. She had convinced him he was, she hoped he could see and feel the overwhelming happy feeling she felt, and want to keep him as much as she did
She was very wrong
A few seconds later Hals eyes turned cold as he looked at the child in his arms, he slowly stood up
Alices face dropped 'what are you doing?"
Hal slowly started walking towards the door "This is what is best Alice"
Alice flung the blankets off of her "Hal, give him back!" She yelled
The loud noise woke the baby up and he started screaming, urging to be comforted by him mommy
As soon as she stood up she regretted it, the pain from childbirth made it hard for her to walk
Hal kept inching towards the door "He'll be happy Alice"
Alices eyes started pouring tears "Give me my baby!" She cried loudly as she stumbled her way, trying to reach Hal
Charles's cries filled the room which broke Alices heart
As Hal reached for the door knob, Alice grabbed his forearm "Give me my baby" she said sternly trying to wipe he tears
Hal trys to keep look the other way but Alice reaches out to grab her baby but Hal shoves her away, making her fall to the floor
Hal walks out the door and closes it behind him
Alice stands up, tears flowing down her face, she goes to the door and tries to open it but can't because its locked "NO!" She screams hitting the door "GIVE ME MY BABY" she screams again, a loud sobbing escapes her lips. She clutches her chest, as she heard her sons cries slowly fade out as Hal takes him away
She leans her head against the door and starts hitting it with her fists over and over, untill her knuckles are back n blue, she screams and cries but nobody comes to her aid, she leans her head against the door and shuts her eyes tightly as she clutches her chest in pain "He just wants his mommy" she sobs she slides down onto the floor "I want my baby" she whispers
That was the days Alices heart was shattered into a trillion pieces and even as time went on, no matter how many years had passed Alice and her heart were never the same.
