Venting Writing

Venting Writing #3

23 March 2015 7:48 pm

Uncomfortable

Ever felt uncomfortable around a group of people you used to

Be able to call your "friends" or "good friends"?

Of course you have...many if not most people have been there at some point.

Well I have been there a few times in my life.

In fact I am back there again but, luckily and thankfully,

I have many other groups of friends, close friends, friends that are like family, etc.

The group of people I used to be able to call my "friends" or "good friends"

Have recently changed in a way that makes it uncomfortable to be near them.

Me and the group of friends I call my family used to be

Often be with that now uncomfortable group of friends.

We were supposed to be with that group but just couldn't handle the stress.

We also didn't have the time to stay with that group.

Our grades were beginning to suffer and we weren't even

In the most time consuming stages yet.

If you are reading this you may be confused as to what I am talking about now.

Unfortunately I will not disclose any information that

Will directly reveal what it is I am talking about.

Anyways, it is quite uncomfortable to be near that group now.

I like how happy they look now though and I wish I could be happy like that too.

I am just not sure I want to "share" that type of happiness with them?

I don't know, I just really want to be able to smile because I am happy again.

Starting to go off topic here (again)...I have a bad habit of doing that....

My brain and thoughts are so scattered lately it's hard to stay focused...

Hahaha anyways I just don't feel comfortable talking to nor being anywhere near them.

...I feel as though I am being repetitive...probably am...sorry if I am...

It's just that I don't know what to say to them anymore...

I am somewhat afraid to talk to them or even look their way...

I don't like feeling like this....

If I talk to them I am sure that they will try to recruit me...

I am afraid that I will be told how they missed me and wished I had stayed with them.

At one point I wanted to be like them and have what they have.

Now that I see them with it...I don't have the same desire to be like them,

To have what they have now.... I am happy that I left...

I am satisfied with the decision(s) I have made regarding that group...

I am satisfied that I am not one of them...

The only problem is that now I feel awkward and uncomfortable.

I feel awkward and uncomfortable knowing that I was with them at one point and just decided to leave because I couldn't handle it...

Now everything is just awkward and uncomfortable...