Venting Writing

Venting Writing #6 (Part 2)

28 April 2015 12:12 am

Thoughts....(cont'd)

Inspired by All Time Low, The Neighbourhood, "Who You Are"- Jessie J and my iTunes library.

It seems like all I want to do is write now but

I cant seem to focus long enough to finish after I have started.

I am sitting outside in the cold with my friends right now.

I cant feel my fingers because they are cold beyond

the point of feeling them again any time soon.

I am blasting One Direction in my ears "Where Do Broken Hearts Go".

Listening to the British voices I have grown used to hearing

that I understand them as if they had no accent.

I am shivering a bit but I don't really seem to mind.

My hands are beginning to hurt due to the cold breeze blowing on them.

They feel as cold as ice at the moment.

They are now warm enough to continue typing this now.

Typing this makes me feel like Edgar Allen Poe for some reason;

Or maybe Emily Dickinson or possibly both.

Not sure why but I have been in an Raven by Edgar Allen Poe kind of mood lately.

I know it sounds pretty bad and depressing

But that is how I have been feeling.

Dark and deep; depressing and wise.

Sorry if this makes you depressed.

I don't want to make others feel down because I'm often down.

Which is why I pretend nothing is really wrong around others

I'm probably just feeling this due to all of the stress I have been dealing with.

I don't really talk to my parents or anyone about my problems.

The way I see it is that they have their own problems to deal with.

I don't want to add on to that because I know how it feels

When you're dealing with stuff and then you have friends who come to you for help

Because they feel comfortable talking to you about their issues rather someone else.

SO whenever I am dealing with a lot I just keep to myself until I can't anymore.

Typing this an listening to "Who You Are" by Jessie J and looking up at the ¾ moon, dark sky, few stares, somewhat soothing nightfall view, deep in thought

Makes me want to just sit here, type this and cry out all of my pain.

It is starting to become more difficult to keep all of this in

I know that most of this is going to come out sooner or later...

I prefer later because I don't want to worry anyone...

The lyrics to this song, "Who You Are" — Jessie J, really has me thinking.

If you listen to that song while reading this you may understand what I am feeling...

"It's okay not to be okay..."

The End. 

28 April 2015 1:10 am

Venting Writing #6

 

"Who You Are" by Jessie J

I stare at my reflection in the mirror:

"Why am I doing this to myself?"

Losing my mind on a tiny error,

I nearly left the real me on the shelf.

No, no, no, no, no...

Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!

Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,

It's okay not to be okay.

Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.

Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,

Just be true to who you are!

(who you are [11x])

Brushing my hair—do I look perfect?

I forgot what to do to fit the mould, yeah!

The more I try the less it's working, yeah

'Cause everything inside me screams

No, no, no, no, no...

Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!

Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,

It's okay not to be okay.

Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.

But tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,

There's nothing wrong with who you are!

Yes, no, egos, fake shows, like whoa!

Just go and leave me alone!

Real talk, real life, good love, goodnight,

With a smile that's my home!

That's my home, no...

No, no, no, no, no...

Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!

Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,

It's okay not to be okay...

Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.

Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,

Just be true to who you are!

Yeah yeah yeah