10 November 2015 1:14 AM
Lost...
At the moment I feel SO lost....
It's like I don't know what to do anymore...
It feels like I don't know how to sleep, eat, breathe, live, function, learn, walk, run, listen, speak, think, feel, see, hear, taste, or ANYTHING anymore.
I just feel so LOST.
This is the most lost I have ever felt before
It almost feels like I am depressed...
I don't know...maybe I am...
Maybe I could be...
Depressed.
One word that is so complex and comes in many different forms and types.
Such a simple word can describe a complicated situation, person, etc.
...The thing is...I do not feel depressed...well not really...
Depressed just doesn't feel like the right word to describe how I've been feeling.
Come to think of it, those moments in the past when I thought I might have just been "DEPRESSED" I was actually just feeling a bit LOST.
Of course not as lost as I am feeling now but something close to it...
Lately I haven't been able to sleep or really eat...
I find this to be a bit normal although I really shouldn't.
I low-key feel like Edgar Allen Poe, again...
I am sitting in my room at my desk,
Which is located by the window, across from my bed...
In the dark...the only light source being that from my laptop screen...
I feel like I have been shutting everyone and everything out lately.
Friends, Family, Professors, and anyone else who may care about me...
I feel like I have been shutting them out...isolating myself from the world...
Or at least trying to in a way....
If you have ever read an Edgar Allen Poe poem
You may often find yourself, or not finding yourself,
Picturing him sitting somewhere in an "abandoned" looking ole house
Isolated from everyone and everything
Sitting the "dark", or non well lit area, in a room or study just typing away...
I should be asleep right as I have a 9 AM class today...
I haven't done any coursework in a while it feels like...
I really just want to say, "FUCK IT" to everything
Pretty much just like the character Chris from the show Skins ...
It is like I want to be left alone but in the presence of someone or something...
It might not make sense to you but I know for a fact
That there are some people that know exactly what I am talking about.
I think I should just end off here, for now, as it is now 1:38 AM....
Goodnight (US West coast time)/Good morning! (Ireland and everywhere else time)
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