Bright lights. That's all I can see. I'm not blind to the feeling of sweaty palms, and aching feet. I'm currently standing in one of Oxford Universities' auditoriums, about to play for the biggest crowd I've seen in my entire life. The feeling of bile rising into my throat, along with my eyes stinging from the lights, can make someone go mad.
One of the reasons I've even been accepted into the most prestigious college in the world, is my skill in the violin. I'm currently studying English, hoping to major in being a kindergarten teacher. I've always loved kids, one day I hope to have some, but my chances of being fertile are less likely to even be eaten by a shark. My mom had spent 14 years trying to have me. 14 years I cannot waste on a dream, even knowing how bad I want it.
I raise my shaking hand holding the bow, and then guide it across the strings, as it starts playing an original song that only I could master. I close my eyes, and let the tune flood through my ear and out the other. Playing had always calmed me, all my family ever really cared about were grades, and when it had gotten to be to hard for me, I always had the violin to help relive stress.
Soon enough, the last note was played, and I took my more relaxed hand away from the violin, and put it to my side. Everyone stood up and clapped with manners. I was then escorted off the stage, and into the back room, where my parents would always meet me. I wasn't watching where I was going, and suddenly I bumped into the most gorgeous man I've ever seen before.
"Hello, you must be Valen, I'm Ezra" the man said as he reached his hand towards me. I then took my now shaky hands and grasped onto his larger one, and shook it. I realized I hadn't said anything and decided to not make a fool out of myself any longer.
"Yes, I'm Valen" I gulped as he then smiled a huge panty dropping smile, that would make the goddesses weak. But little did I know I would be making the best, worse decision of my life; introducing myself to this, how do I put it? To this........God.
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Author's Note: First chapter is complete, and I hope everyone enjoyed it. By far this is going to be my favorite book I've released, and I'm working really hard on it, so I hope you guys enjoy a little piece of my heart.
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