Daddy Issues

41|Dealer

I'm so pissed off.

I get ready for school by pulling myself into the shower and then getting dressed. I put on some black jeans and then choose between Josh's old hoodie and Alex's sweatshirt.

I'm annoyed at Alex so end up choosing Josh's old hoodie. I do light makeup and my hair before heading downstairs.

"Hi." I say as my mom slips on some heels by the front door. "Hi hon, I'm gonna head to work." She says and I nod.

"Call me if you need me." She says and kisses my cheek. She leaves and I snack on some leftover cookies before I have to leave.

****

"Hi." Alex says putting a hand round my waist. "Get off." I whisper to him whilst pulling my textbook out.

"What's wrong?" He asks confused. "I don't know Alex, you tell me." I shrug and he sighs. "I don't know..." he says slowly.

"Don't worry about it then." I say heading to my next lesson but he grabs my wrist. "Talk to me. Communication is key remember." He says and I roll my eyes. "Wow. You're one to talk." I say pulling my hand from his wrist.

"Relationship trouble already?" Jason's voice asks, coming behind me. My eyes widen and I try to tell Alex with my eyes to ignore him.

"Fuck off." Alex says taking my books from my hands for me and retaking my hand, but this time in his hand.

"You ready to give me a turn yet India?" Jason asks and I scrunch up my face and shiver in disgust. I look up at Alex who looked like he was ready to blow a fuse.

"Just ignore him. Let's go." I say attempting to walk away. I don't know what Jason does but I feel Alex tense up and squeeze the shit out of my hand.

Alex leans down and kisses me and the only reason I kiss back is so he can calm the fuck down.

When we pull away, he smiles smugly at Jason before leading me out to his car.

"I have like 5 minutes." I warn and he nods.

"What's wrong?" He asks and I scoff. "Yesterday." Is all I need to say before realisation hits him square in the face.

"Shit India, I forgot." He says and I raise an eyebrow. "I don't wanna look clingy here." I start. "But when my mom wasn't home, you were around all the time and always sleeping round my place. Now you 'can't remember' to stop by my place. It doesn't make sense." I say and he groans.

"Hunter literally showed up at my house, stressing like an idiot. He wouldn't even tell me anything and then you show up, usher him out of my house and then don't tell me what the hell is going on. I'm not some weak little girl who can't take it. Yeah I can get emotional but secrets break relationships. I don't wanna go through that, we just got together." I say and he sighs.

"I've gotta go." I say getting out of his car. "I'll swing by later." He says and I sigh. "I've got work Alex." I say and he nods as I walk back into school.

I walk straight to Biology and slide down beside Lily. "You okay?" She asks and I nod.

****
After work, I head home. It was quite late when I walked in.

"India is that you?" My mom yells as I lock the front door. "Yeah." I call back and head into the kitchen, to eat some of my food.

After my dinner, I say goodnight to my mom and head upstairs.

I open my bedroom door and head into my room.

I throw my bag on the floor and collapse on my bed.

"Tired?" Alex asks and I swear to god, I jump across the room.

"What the hell are you doing!" I say putting my hand over my chest. "I think you just gave me a heart attack." I groan sitting up.

"Sorry." He says standing up from my desk chair and heading towards me.

"How was work?" He asks and I nod. "How was your work." I ask and he sighs. "I don't have a job." He says and I raise an eyebrow. "Anymore." He adds.

"Are you gonna tell me what your job was?" I adk and he nods slowly. "I was a drug dealer." He says and I close my eyes and just nod.

"I know." He groans. "But I had to. It's also why I couldn't do anything about Jason. I hated it and trust me I would do anything to have changed it." He says and realisation hits me. "It's why you were at all them parties. It's why you got so freaked out at that one party, right?" I ask and he nods.

"Oh my god." I say standing up. "What?" He asks worried. "That night." I start and he sucks in a breath. "No." I groan and he nods.

"I swear to god I didn't know." He says grabbing my hands but I pull them away from him. "India please." He sighs and I shake my head.

"I could've endured some serious damage!" I say and he nods his head fastly. "I know, I know." He sighs running a hand through his hair.

"I tried to stop after that." He says and I sit back down on my bed, my head now spinning. "Stop." I say whilst I try to collect myself.

"I'm really, really sorry India." He says and I nod. He kneels down infront of me and holds my hands out.

"I'm sorry."  He says before kissing my cheek.

"I'm sorry." The other cheek.

"I'm sorry." My nose.

"I'm sorry." My forehead.

"Okay, okay. I get it." I laugh and he leans down slightly. "I don't think you do." He says before kissing another part of my face.

"I'm sorry." My jaw.

"I'm sorry." Just below my ear.

"I'm sorry." Just below my other ear.

"I'm so so so sorry India. Please forgive me." He says and kisses my lips.

"I forgive you." I laugh and he takes a breath of relief.

"I didn't know about your dad then and--"

"It's fine. All that matters is you're not now." I say and he kisses me again.

"Sleepover?" He asks with a pout and it is adorable. "Yeah." I smile lying back and dragging him on top of me.

"Oh." He says his eyes widening. "That type of sleepover." He says and licks his lips.

"Are you alright with that?" I ask and he nods. "Hell yeah I am. Are you?" He asks and I smile. "Show me how sorry you are Alex." I whisper and he groans. "Damn right I will." He say and begins to rock his hips into mine.

"But be quiet because of my mom." I add and he scoffs. "I always am." He smiles before his lips meet mine.