My Last Hope

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Warnings:
-Suicide attempt (overdose+CPR)
-Mentions homophobia

George's POV

I was cycling home after school. My parents weren't at home, I only knew one of my siblings was at home.

I grew up in a family with my parents, two sisters, one brother and one non-binary sibling. My parents were rich, we lived in a big house and I was just used to getting everything I wanted to get.

The last few weeks, my parents told me I was too spoiled and that I needed to see the real world too. I was just annoyed and walked off as I played on my PC.

I had always been happy, I didn't understand why people complained about being so sad sometimes. They just had to enjoy life, it was that easy. Just be who you wanted to be and don't care about what others said about you. Apparently it wasn't that easy.

I entered my place and threw my bag on the ground in the corner of the room. Since I was hungry, I grabbed myself something to eat and a drink and then walked up to my room.

I always greeted my siblings so I knocked on their door. 'Hi, Robin,' I yelled. 'Are you there?'

My sibling was born a boy, but never felt like a boy nor a girl. When they turned ten, they already decided they didn't want to be called he/him anymore. They were currently fifteen and two years back they came out as non binary and pansexual.

Since my dad was bisexual, that was no problem at all here, but I believed Robin got bullied at school. They never really told me much, probably because I found it dumb that people actually listened to what others told them.

'Robin?' I asked again as I knocked on the door. 'Are you asleep?'

It was completely quiet. I didn't hear the sheets moving, I didn't hear anyone breathing. It was a deadly silence.

'Rob?' I yelled. 'Can you reply please?'

When they didn't answer again I pushed the door open and walked in. My heart skipped a beat and I felt my face flushed incredibly red as I realised what was going on.

⚠️ Suicide attempt (overdose+CPR)

Robin was laying down on the floor. Foamish stuff came out of their mouth and there was a note next to their head. I grabbed it and started reading.

Hello anyone who reads this,

I'm sorry that I've commit suicide, but I couldn't deal with it anymore. I didn't want to bother anyone, I don't think anyone would get it.

⚠️ Mentions homophobia

Today at school was terrible. I got beaten up, they pushed my head in a toilet in the boy's bathroom to make sure I knew I was a "boy". After repeatedly hitting me while calling me a boy, I left school and got crushed inside.

⚠️ Over

I'm glad I have an accepting family, but I'm so incredibly hurt and I hate the way I look. I'm always too scared to look too boyish in others' eyes. I don't want to be seen as a boy, I'm not a boy nor a girl.

I had this plan for a really long time, don't think it's any of your faults because you kept me going for ages. I love you a lot, but I just can't deal with it anymore.

I love you all <3
Robin

I started squeezing my hands as I fell down on the ground and grabbed my phone. A tear rolled down my face, I hadn't cried in years. I couldn't understand why they would do something like this, but I did know that I was getting crushed by the pain inside.

I called the emergency number and waited for them to pick up. It took a few seconds before someone asked who I wanted to speak to.

'An ambulance,' I whispered, trying not to break down.

I got connected to another person and stared in front of me in shock. I was so in shock that I barely heard the person speak to me.

'What's the address of your emergency?'

I mumbled my address and they kept speaking to me. It was so much that it overwhelmed me completely.

'Hello? Are you there? Can you tell me what happened?'

'My sibling overdosed,' I whispered as another tear fell down my face.

'Are they breathing? Is their heart still pumping?'

I held my hand in their neck and shrugged. 'I don't know, they aren't breathing.'

'You need to perform CPR, do you know how to do it?'

'No,' I mumbled as I stared at Robin. I was completely in shock and everything that happened felt like it was happening in slow motion. I felt pain inside, but I was too shocked to realise I was having pain.

'Lay the phone down on speaker and do exactly what I tell you to do.'

I listened to the voice and imitated what they said I had to do while I was staring at Robin's face. I genuinely couldn't understand why someone would do this.

I understood that bullying hurt a lot, but they weren't a boy and we had told them that so often. Why would they listen to bullies over their parents and siblings?

I kept performing CPR until an ambulance arrived at my house. I stood up and watched in front of me with my mouth slightly open. I didn't realise at all what was happening.

'Take care of him,' someone yelled as they pointed at me and knelt down next to Robin.

Someone grabbed my hand and we went downstairs. I got softly pushed down on the couch and they gave me a blanket and some water. 'What's your name?'

'G-George,' I whispered as I stared at my hands with big eyes.

'George, you're currently in shock. We are going to call your parents and you are going to sleep, okay?'

I shook my head and scratched my skin as I looked up slowly. 'Robin?'

'They are in the ambulance getting treated now.'

I looked down again and the guy next to me rubbed my shoulder softly. 'Your parents are going to be here very soon, okay?'

I didn't answer and just stared. 'Robin.'

'We are taking care of them, they are going to be okay. We are doing everything we can so they'll survive.'

I laid down and curled up as I stared at the floor. I was completely shocked, barely realising what just happened.

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Summary:
George's non binary sibling overdosed and George finds them, performs CPR and calls an ambulance. George is in shock, sibling is in coma.