Unexpected love (Completed)

Chapter 2.

Emily's POV 

I blew it and I don't know why. It's the day that I'm leaving for Korea and I haven't seen Chris since our fight. The weirdest thing is that it was our first fight ever and I guess it's our last. 

I actually went to his house like 3 times and I felt so desperate but I just didn't want to lose his friendship, but I guess he didn't feel the same way. His mother always let me in but he didn't let me inside his room to talk to him and see what was going on. 

I was planning on going today for one last time, maybe since it's my last day he will come out and we can be good again. 

"Can we drive to Chris first?" I asks mom as I already had my backpacks in the trunk and was sitting besides mom. 

"Still fighting?" I nodded and she just nods and we went to his house. 

When we got there, his mother said hi to me and my mom and let us in. 

"I hope he comes out today, I have a feeling he will regret it if he doesn't." I heard Chris' mom say to my mom as I went up the stairs. 

I sigh when I got to his room and knocked on the door. 

I feel pathetic. 

"Hey Chris, it's Em... again." I said, and tried to see if I heard any movement but I didn't. Although I could see someone was on the other side by the shadow that could be seen a little bit on the door. "Chris, please, I have no idea what I did wrong and I know it was me because you've never acted this way with me before. This is our first fight and I hate it. I hate feeling like I'm the reason we are fighting and I can't even do anything about it because I have no idea what I did wrong." 

I waited a bit again, to see if something happens, but nothing. 

I decided to sit with my back against the door, hoping that maybe he was doing the same and somehow feel close to him again. 

"I-I'm leaving today and I really don't want to lose you forever." My voice cracked and I felt the tears coming to my eyes. I haven't really cried over this until now, because it is becoming too real. "I'm actually scared of doing this, specially because of my mom, I don't know how she'll react when she realizes that I'm not actually going where she thinks I'm going. I have no idea what is going to happen once I get over there, alone." 

"But you know what? Something I haven't been able to tell anyone is that I found out where my brother lives. I actually paid money to an investigator and he thinks that is the address, so as soon as I land I will be going there. And again, I'm scared out of my mind, but I wish I could just tell you everything I'm feeling face to face, and you telling me everything will be okay like you always do-" When I was saying that the door opened suddenly, making me almost fall backwards, but he catch me. 

I was in his arms and I saw his face for the first time in two weeks and his eyes where so red and swollen. I can't believe he actually has been crying. 

"C-Chris I-I'm s-orry-" I was interrupted by a sudden kiss. I was not expecting at all. 

What the hell is going on? 

He was moving his lips against mine but I just couldn't find myself to kiss him back, I don't feel the same way. 

Then I realized something... This is why he was acting like this. 

When he noticed that I wasn't kissing him back, he stoped and moved away, now we where both standing up and he had his back facing me. 

"Chris-" 

"I'm sorry." He said. I wasn't expecting that either. 

"No Chris it's fine-" 

"No, it's not fine." I heard him say and he couldn't look at me, still with his back towards me. "I was the one that broke this friendship, but just so you know, I've always felt this way towards you." 

My heart broke a bit at that, making me feel worse. 

"I should of known you didn't feel the same way, it was obvious. But I just had a small hope inside of me telling me that maybe you did and that's why you came here all the time to try and talk to me before you leave. Maybe even making me change your mind about leaving, but of course it wasn't the case." 

"Chris-" 

"Emily I've loved you since we where in preschool, you've been my crush since then and just now I had the guts to see if you felt the same way as well." This time he turned around and I saw he was crying. "I knew I would blow it if I ever did this and it happened and now you are leaving and I can't do anything to stop you." 

"B-But we can still be friends-" He shook his head and in that moment my heart broke completely. 

"I can't just be friends with you anymore Em." He told me. "Do you know what a torture its been for me to be with you as just friends? And now that I've showed you my true feelings I regret it. But there is no going back now. Our friendship can't be the same." 

"I-I don't want to l-lose you." By now I had tears in my eyes as he came closer to me, I still feel safe with him, I need him as the brother I never got to have. 

"You lost me two weeks ago Em." The tears just began to fall from my eyes when he said that and I can't believe I just lost my best friend. 

"Chris p-please-" 

"I can't Em." He put his hands on my cheeks and tried to wipe the tears away as he was crying as well. "I hope you find your brother and maybe if you ever come back, tell me, okay? Maybe then things will be different." 

All I could do was nod, as he pulled me to an embrace. Oh his hugs, I'm gonna miss this so much. 

Do I really want to go? 

"M-Maybe I can stay." I said in almost a whisper but he heard me. 

"No, you have to do this now Em. It's what you've always wanted." He told me as we separated. "Be safe, okay?" 

I nodded and he lead me out of his room, although he stayed in his doorway. 

"I-I'm gonna miss you." I told him, and he smiled sadly at me, as he closed the door.