Unexpected love (Completed)

Chapter 21.

Emily's POV 

When I opened my eyes, there was a very high noise on my ears, making it impossible for me to hear anything at all, or comprehend what was happening. I saw very white blinding lights all around me, people surrounding me and I was moving. 

I was moving so fast, I saw a boy next to me, holding my hand. I saw him moving his lips but I couldn't understand what he was saying. 

Everything began to spin and I decided it was best if I just closed my eyes again. 

And so, I did. 

Jungkook's POV 

I could hear a beep sound coming from behind me, someone yelling "HIS WAKING UP! HOW IS HE WAKING UP! WE HAVE TO PUT HIM BACK TO SLEEP!" 

Suddenly, I felt an undefying pain in my stomach, making my vision blurry. 

Where are the guys? I need them. 

I need them to be by my side, telling me everything will be alright. 

But all I could hear was yelling, doctors doing stuff to me and then everything went black. 

Hoseok's POV 

This cannot be happening. 

Everything that we tried to avoid, everything we didn't want to let happen, just happened in front of our eyes. 

Jungkook trying to save Emily, RM shooting Jungkook's father who's now dead, and either way, he was able to shot at Emily before any of us could react. 

So Jungkook's saving was for nothing. 

I saved her for nothing. 

Everything is my fault. 

We are now at a hospital because of me. 

Maybe if I've just decided to let it go, to let Emily be in that basement...

No, that also doesn't sound right, I had to save her. She would be suffering either way, but maybe, just maybe, now she has a better chance at surviving. 

How? I have no clue, I'm not even sure myself, maybe this is it. 

One of my best friends, practically, my younger brother is in this hospital, fighting for his life. 

The love of my life is here as well, fighting for her life. 

And how come I'm perfectly fine? I should be the one lying on either of their beds. I shouldn't be here, totally fine. 

This doesn't feel right. 

They shouldn't be suffering. 

"Hoseok, it's gonna be okay." I heard Joon telling me, as I looked out the window in the waiting area. 

We were all here, most of us crying. 

It surprises me how Joon can be so strong right now. I know he is in pain because of JK. We all are. 

But I could tell the one that was taking it the hardest was Jimin. 

He was trying so hard to maintain this perfect position, be this strong men that can go through anything and be brave when Jin couldn't. But once we saw the chaos and once we saw Jungkook on the ground, with so much blood, he lost it. 

That moment will always hunt us. 

Tae was trying to comfort him, although he is also crying himself.  

We are all crying, maybe Yoongi is not crying right now, nor RM, but we all have cried, just that some of us are crying for longer. 

"Hoseok?" Joon was trying to get my attention, but I just can't focus. 

All I can think about is that this is all my fault. And I should be in one of those hospital beds. 

"Let him be, he'll come around eventually." I heard Suga telling him and I thank him for that. I need space. 

I feel like I can't breathe. 

But I have to, we can't lose someone else. 

Although we haven't lost anyone, why I'm I thinking this way? 

I'm hope. 

I'm supposed to be the happy positive vibe, specially in moments like this. 

But I can't bring myself to be positive. 

When I know this was all my fault. 

If we lose any of them, I won't be able to forgive myself. 

I should've of done something more. 

I close my eyes as I sat in a fetal position by the window and put my head against it. 

It was raining, which just suits the mood perfectly. 

How are fans going to react when they hear about this? 

How will management react? 

I hope ARMY doesn't worry too much, I couldn't even begin to describe how I would feel if they begin to cry or feel like there is no hope anymore. 

I'm supposed to be that hope. 

But what if I can't be now? Who else is there to make them believe that there is still hope?

 Who can make me believe that there is still hope?