Unexpected love (Completed)

Chapter 25.

Important Author's Note: This chapter may be very sensible and triggering for some. Please read just if you are sure you can handle it. If you suffer from depression, or any other kind of issue related to sadness, I suggest you not to read it. 

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Hoseok's POV 

This week has passed by so slow and yet I have no idea what I've been doing. I found myself alone in a strange park not knowing how I got there, then going to a bar and drinking so much. 

I know it's wrong what I'm doing, I know I should asks for help. 

Sejin texted me and has called me a few times, but I haven't replied. 

Joon has also texted me as well as Jin, which is weird for them to be texting me, but all I've said was 'I'm fine'. 

I haven't been in the right state of mind since I saw Emily in that bed, since I knew that Jungkook was gonna be fine but is in the hospital because of me. 

And who knows what else, I know there is something else because the boys are keeping something from me. 

But I don't dare to ask. 

I feel like something is missing. I don't feel like myself at all. 

I'm in the bathroom, on the apartment I rented for this month since my family hasn't come back from their trip, making me feel even more alone. 

But somehow I'm kind of grateful for. 

Honestly, I don't want anyone to see me like this. 

Just as I thought this, I saw some pills on the cabinet. 

Looking at the pills I know that I shouldn't do this... I know that I should let go of this stupid state I'm in, but it's so hard. 

Nothing has ever been this fucked up before. 

Maybe if I'm doing this, I should at least leave a text message, right? 

What I'm I even thinking? 

I entered twitter and looked at the news. 

Jungkook from BTS is finally getting released from the hospital. 

What happened to Jungkook? 

What happened to BTS? 

Where is BTS? 

Is BTS okay? 

Everyone has been worried sick about us, not knowing where we are, what we've been up to. We haven't even talked on Weverse for the past month. 

Sighing, I felt my eyes watering. 

This isn't like me. 

But I don't know what to do, I just want the pain to go away. 

Maybe if I just take a few, it will take the pain away, but not take me away completely, right? 

I decided to text Joon, to see what he thinks. He always knows what to do. 

Joon, should I do it? 

Does he know what I'm talking about? I mean, I don't know, but lets say that he does and wait for his reply. 

Joon's POV 

Joon, should I do it? 

"Jin." I said as I tug at his arm while still looking at my phone. 

This text is weird, I have no idea what Hoseok is talking about, but I'm scared. 

"What?" 

Suga told us that JK will be coming home soon, with his mother. Suga will be staying with Emily since JK asked him to, in case something happened.