Toxic - Rudy Pankow

Twenty Four <3

||Josette's POV||
*present time*

As soon as the door is closed on my face my knees give way and I push myself against the wall bringing my knees to my chest. Although I have been crying for days my body still somehow finds room for more.

I knew Rudy wasn't going to be happy about this but I didn't think that he would leave, I thought we could maybe talk it out or at least fight and not speak. Not for him to leave.

Right now all I wanted was him. I needed him and I needed to feel like I wasn't alone in this. I know that it's the shittiest situation that we could possibly be in but there was nothing that I could do about it now. The damage is done.

After a good hour of solid crying I picked myself up off of the floor. It was dark outside and Rudy still wasn't back. But it's okay, he's not stupid. He wouldn't do anything to risk his life, I knew that. He just needed to wrap his brain around it and then he'd come back to me, right?

I pull my phone out of my pocket and send a message to JD asking if he knew where Rudy was just to make sure that he was safe.

Josie
Hey JD, is Rudy with you?

JD
Yea we are all at the party, where are you?
We thought you were coming

Josie
I didn't feel well. Sorry

JD
Feel better soon!

I let out a relieved breath knowing that he's safe although it hurt to know that instead of wanting to work things out with me that he'd rather go to a party. However maybe being surrounded by his friends was what he needed. I just hoped that he wouldn't tell them all yet, I wasn't ready for them all to know.

I make my way out onto the balcony and look up to the sky where the stars are shining bright. My hands slowly go towards my stomach and I look down at it. In there was a child, my child. Although this wasn't what I wanted I found slight comfort knowing that I wasn't totally alone.

"It's okay bean, we are going to get through this" I whisper and smile slightly before the ringing of my phone pulls me from my moment. I walk back into the apartment picking up my phone.

Incoming call from - Madelyn

Hey Mads, what's up?

Josie you need to get here now

I told JD I wasn't coming. Im sorry

No Josie I mean you need to get here now. It's Rudy, please just come quick. I'll send you the address okay?

Is he okay? Madelyn is Rudy okay?!

Rudy no! Stop it! -

Sounds of yelling and smashing sounds throughout my phone before the line goes dead and my heart races. Is he okay? Is he hurt? I quickly rush to the door pulling my shoes on before calling a cab and anxiously waiting outside for it to arrive. Please don't let anything happen to him. This is all my fault, I made him mad and now he's hurt, this is all my fault.

The cab pulls up and I jump in quickly telling the driver the address that Madelyn had sent me.

"Please hurry quick! It an emergency" I beg the driver frantically and he nods proceeding to up his speed. After about 10 agonisingly long minutes we pull up outside a large house. I pay the man his money thanking him and run towards the door which is wide open and music sounds around me. It was as if I were in high school again, there were drunk people everywhere.