Future Mrs. Robertson

Thirty one

Kate

My daughter has died and I can't even attend her funeral. Nothing hurts more than that. I'm literally fighting for my life but I would give anything for my daughter to be back, healthy and not a single hair touched.

I was stood behind a tree as I saw my daughter's casket go down the ground. Hope was devastated, from a far distance l could tell she lost a lot of weight and half of that is my fault. Alex on the other side showed no emotion whatsoever, she seemed stone cold and that's all on me too. Emma as always was a walking Zombie but I'm glad she has Leah around.

However what caught my outmost attention was the woman Emma layed her head on. The woman had her hands wrapped around Emma's shoulders. I don't know but that kinda hurts. I know I have no right being jealous especially considering my track record but I still love my family and if given a chace I'd grab it with both hands.

I may be called a bad mother and a lot of other names but everything I do, I do it for the well being of my family. I would do anything for them without a second thought. If it means suffering alone for them to be well then so be it.

I waited for everyone to leave the cemetery and then made my way to my daughter's final resting place. I need tell her why I wasn't there when she needed me the most. She needs to know that I tried.

As I was taking to Faith, I felt a sharp pain in my stomach then followed a gush of water running down my legs. I knew it was time.

Emma

It's been a month since we bid farewell to Faith. Kate didn't even make it to her own daughter's funeral.  I don't know how I would have made it if it wasn't for Peyton. She helped me at my lowest.

Peyton is a doctor. Yes the one who diagnosed my daughter. Since then she has been there for us. Sometimes she would be the one bringing us some groceries since everyone in this house was depressed. I may or may not have had sex with her, that's just how I deal with things. She was available and I was also willing.

What I didn't expect was to fall for her. Peyton is a really great person, beautiful too but I'm just not ready to dive in anything yet. I did tell her and she also said she wasn't looking for anything serious. Now that's the most confusing part seeing that we literally do everything serious couples do. She spends some night here. My daughters seem to love her also. Angel took an instant in liking her.

Right now I'm in bed with Payton, she came last night after her shift at the hospital. I'm sure during the night Angel woke up and Payton fetched her cause there's no way my daughter would be snuggling with Payton right now.

Me : When did you get her?

Payton : Around midnight when I used the restroom, I heard her crying so I just bought her to sleep with us. I didn't think you would mind sorry.

Me : No it's okay I was just wondering how she got here. Let me go take a shower.

Payton : Sure, Let me go prepare some breakfast. Today I'm off.

Me : Great maybe we can go to the park. Angel could use a child filled environment.

Her : Yeah. I'll fix us some sandwiches for the park.

Recently Angel hasn't been doing great at the daycare. Her teacher said something about her being easily angered and distracted. She shares no toys and throws anything in sight just to have what she wants.

Payton suggested therapy but my family and I have done that and it didn't help so I'm not about to send my two year old to some shrink.

As I was taking a shower the door opened and Payton came in. At first I thought maybe I'd be getting some but that's before I looked at her face. She was pale and shocked. I swear she saw some ghost.

Me : Uhm What's wrong?

Her : I think you need to see this for yourself.

Me : What is it?

She doesn't say anything but hands me my robe. She leads the way down stairs till we reach the front door. As soon as she opens it I'm met with two blue eyes starring at me. Two babysits sit there at my welcome mat with a letter on their bodies. I immediately take both of them in.

Payton : Why would anyone leave their kids on your door step Em?

Me : When Kate left we found out she was pregnant, we were already in the process of divorcing so we decided that once she gave birth she'll bring them.

She just nodded picking one child I have no idea if Kate named them or what. I open the letter she left and read it.

Payton : So what does it say?
I let out a defeated sigh

Me : Both the kids are allergic to formula, I have no idea what I'm going to feed them and their names are Kayla and Kaylee

Payton : Well I can help breastfeed them if you don't mind. I gave birth to a still born two months back but my breast still produces milk. I often pump and donate it to the hospital.

Me : You a God sent.

Payton : So who am I holding?

Me : That's Kaylee.

I have to wake the kids and explain to them that the twins have been bought. I'm just glad I had already explained to them that we were going to have them around hence they even helped put out the nursary. Now my daughters are all here with me. Where they belong and I'm going to make sure they lack nothing. Kate decided to leave them so I wont.