Future Mrs. Robertson

Thirty

Emma

We were currently sitting at the office waiting for the doctor to explain what is wrong with my daughter. As much as I'm drained I would do anything for my children. Right now I feel like giving up but then look at my kids and I'm all pumped up.

I'm sure Faith suffered a miscarriage, that would explain all that blood. The doctor's did say she was high risk and should stress less but my baby had to be stressed with everything that's going on, I'm stressed myself.

Me : So Doc how is my daughter?

Doc : I think it's best if you call her father also.

Me : I am the father. You can continue.

Doc : Oh sorry what about the mother?

Me : Not in the picture anymore. Why is it so important for the other parant to be present?

Doc : There's no easy way to say this but your daughter suffered what we call eclampsia. Eclampsia is a multi-system disorder that can shut down the kidneys or the liver. It also causes the placenta to detech from the uterus. In worst cases it goes to brain and cause life threatening seizures.

Me : What! No, no Doc. What does this mean?

Doc : Pre-eclampsia should be detected and appropriately managed before the onset of convulsions (eclampsia) and other life threatening complications. In this case I'm sorry but your daughter's organs are already shutting down and there's nothing more we can do.

Me : How long?

Doc : In this case I would say thirty minutes or an hour if we lucky.

I can feel my world crumbling down. Everything in me shut down completely. I could Hope's screams and could see Alex breaking down. I couldn't do anything for my daughters cause I was also at the verge of losing one of my daughters.

Faith was dying and I can't do anything to save her. She's my daughter, my little girl who's supposed to be out there doing what girls her age are doing not laying in a hospital bed awaiting death. No parent is supposed to bury their children. Faith's supposed to bury me not the other way around.

Ben robbed me off a daughter. He robbed me the opportunity to scare any boy who wanted to take my daughter to homecoming dance. He took the most precious gift from me. My daughter only has thirty fucken minutes to live. How do I even begin to accept such fate?

The doctor led us to the room she's in. As we walked in. I put a smile on my face dispite the pain in my heart. I can see both Alex and Hope mirror my action. Faith was laying there with her eyes red showing that she knew what her fate was. She looked pale and weak. She snapped at our direction and for a second I saw disappointment settling in her face

Faith : Daddy is mommy coming?

I closed my eyes as I felt like someone just stabbed me repeatedly in my heart. The sadness in her eyes and voice made itself known. I walked futher in seeing the sadness in all my daughter's faces. This is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I held her hand tightly.

Me : She's on her way baby. She said she was sorry for not being there.

Yes I would lie over and over for my daughter's peace of mind. I'm not doing this for Kate. No! I'm doing this for my daughter. I don't want her leaving this world with the burden of knowing her mother doesn't care.

Faith : I don't think I'm ready yet daddy. She says and tears come out of her eyes.

Me : I know baby. I'm not ready to let you go either princess. You are my baby and will always be.

Faith : Daddy please lay with me?

I did just that and held my princess tightly in my arm as I silently cried praying to whoever was up there to not take my daughter. I begged him to take me instead.

I watched as Faith whispered something to both her sisters and took Angel in her arms. I don't know what she said to Hope and Alex but they were both sobbing while holding her hands.

Faith : Daddy? Mommy is not coming is she? It's okay daddy as long as you here. Remember that song you used to sing for us when we got sick?

Me : Mmm. I remember baby.

Faith : Can you sing it for me one last time?

I didn't answer her instead I just softly sang the song. As I sang the last verse of the song, I saw her hands let go and her breathing got shallow soon followed by the beeping machines.

Just like that my daughter was gone. She was gone. I shook her carefully.

Me : No Faith, wake up baby. Please open your eyes princess, I need you. Wake up baby. I say as tears pour out in my eyes. Please wake up. I begged as I look at everyone and they were all crying.

Doc : Time of death. 12.30.

Hope

My sister was gone. She was no more. My twin sister left me. I'm officially a twinless twin. I couldn't save her.

I got up and walked out. I needed to breathe. I walked out of the hospital and kept on walking with no destination in mind. I just let my legs carry me. I didn't care what was happening around me. I felt suffocated.

Alex

I followed Hope after she left. I felt uneasy and felt the urge to follow her. I didn't stop her or anything. I just walked to the direction she was until I saw her go under ground. It finally clicked in my head and I ran after her. I needed to stop her or I would lose both my sister's today.

I walked in and saw her standing there watching as the train approached. It was still far.

Me : Don't do this Hope. Please.

Her : What are you doing her Alex?

Me : I'm keeping my promise to Faith. I promised her I would look after you and help you through her death but you have to help me Hope. Help me help you so that we keep our promises to Faith. We owe her that much.

I saw as my sister broke down with tears in her face. I was relived when she moved back and came to my direction. When she got to me she threw herself on me and sobbed.

Hope : She's gone Alex. She left me.

I held my sister tighter in my arms. Not caring what people were saying.