moony ; doil [ ✓ ]

05. the worst response

taeil, i need to tell you something

taeil couldn't believe his eyes and he wasn't sure what to think of that feeling. youngchul finally wanted to talk to him. maybe he'll get a proper answer this time. almost desperately, he responds.

what?

i realised something yesterday
and i need to be honest

yeah
you really do

it's just issues coming up in my life
it's tiring

alright
but that doesn't explain why you act all happy with your friends but not me

well

what excuse are you using now?
i'm tired of it
i've tried being patient
i've tried being understanding
yet you're making me hurt
just be honest
why do you act different around me now?

taeil just gets a read in response. he apparently registered youngchul speechless. he waits for a few moments, waiting for his next text, but it never comes so now he's just firing on.

just tell me
what am i doing wrong?

we should break up

now taeil's got nothing to say. his eyes reread the text, as if he didn't want to think those words had actually been typed and sent to him. he wanted to believe that it was meant for someone else, but that was a last desperate cling for hope. no, it was clearly real and meant for him.

we should just end it
i'm sorry taeil
it's not you, it's me

fine
it's fine
i hope you continue to be happy without me

taeil decides to skip school that day, hiding himself under the covers and crying his eyes out, staining his bedsheets with his tears that kept rolling down his once dry cheeks. he tried to act like it didn't cut as deep as it did.

youngchul didn't want to be a relationship with him anymore. they were exes. taeil couldn't hardly bring himself to accept that new truth, but he had to. it felt like hours of him continuing to sob under the cover of his bed covers, but his crying session was irrupted by his friends' concerned text messages asking him where he was.

taeil finally closed a hand around his phone, his red, puffy eyes brightening as he turned his screen on. he saw a whole bunch of all of them:

taeil, where are you?

are you okay? i don't see you

taeil tf did you go

taeil finally forced himself to respond to the group chat, telling them about what happened to him through another wave of falling tears and sniffing.

i'm fine
wait no thats a lie
youngchul broke up with me

kun:
wait
really?!

johnny:
is that why you didn't show up to school

i know
stupid of me
i talked to him about it, like u told me to john
he had nothing to say then
and the day after
he says he has to tell me something
its another excuse
the same excuse actually
then he just breaks up with him after i'm at my fucking limit with him
i wanted it work out
y'know talk it out