𝑰𝒏 𝑭𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒏𝒐

10 : Flutter

𝕆 𝔸 𝕂 𝕃 𝔼 𝕐

February 20th, 20xx

Turning over in my bed, toasty and all, I discovered something strange. What lay in my ribcage had been beating a bit unusual today.

When I was around Somer, it seemed to be beating quickly. I could feel the heat rush to my cheeks thinking about our hang out could have also been a date if we wanted it to be.

We bought each other things. We talked about nothing and yet seemed to laugh at jokes that weren't even funny. Our entire day had revolved around the other and enjoying our day, forgetting about everything else.

A random thought occurred to me. It was how we had come out to each other on Monday. It was strange because I had never felt the need to ever bring up the fact that I was bisexual. Especially to someone I barely met, it just wasn't like me to care to tell someone else.

I hadn't wanted to come out for a while. After I had gotten a boyfriend my freshman year, everyone started to be biphobic towards me. My boyfriend had broken up with me a month into our relationship as everyone made him insecure. I understood him but what about me?

What was I supposed to do with the fact that I couldn't be close to a guy without them worrying I was going to make them gay? Or that every girl was being weird towards me for asking if I was a top or bottom? I was asexual, that about sums up my sexual life.

They never made me feel insecure about knowing what I identified as but they made me insecure about ever speaking it. I guess it was a good idea that my mother had moved us into a new town. Even a hot town like Fresno in February.

Gosh, why was it so hot? My fan is on!

Once the blanket laid only on my abdomen, I sighed. Although my friends back home were scarce, I enjoyed having them. Of course, many came and went and the constant ones were in college and had their own lives.

It was especially nice that Somer was my age and also queer. Giddy was the only word I could think of.

Looking at the moon from the little slit in my blanket curtain, I smiled at it because of how content my heart had felt.

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February 27th, 20xx

"She said she'd come here, right?" Mom asked as soon as she finished packing the snacks.

"Yeah."

My mother had planned for us to get up early so that we could get to the beach at a reasonable time. She was always saying something about 'getting a good spot' as if the beach wasn't going to be packed either way. People found the beach as a way to get into others' spaces.

It disgusted me to be around so many people. My agoraphobia liked to mess with me but I liked human interaction. It was a strange thing.

"Hurry, I'm going to go back to the car."

Pulling my phone out, I shot Somer a text about how we were heading out soon. We'd give her half an hour to get here before we chose to leave. Although I was pretty sure my mom would just want to drive over to her apartment to get her so she didn't have to struggle in the heat.

"She said she'd be here in about five minutes!" I yelled down to my mom.

"Somer?" Willow asked, right behind me.