Goodbye Doesn't Mean Forgetting

Goodbye Doesn't Mean Forgetting: Part 9

It was the morning of our journey, I hadn't slept the night before being the excited little kid that I was. I don't know if I was excited to be away from my mum or go and meet the boys. They all seemed so lovely. I put on my jeans and my favorite Hollister hoodie along with natural makeup and my hair up in a  pony tail. George called to pick me up at 7 to get to the station in time. I grabbed my case, gave my mum a kiss and then headed off with George. Freedom. pulling up at the train station, we showed our tickets and ran to the platform immediately hoping on the train. At 8 O'Clock on the dot the whistle blew and the vehicle started to move. We were on our way to New Market and I knew the memories would come flooding back. I pulled my Ipod and headphones out of my bag, put them in and drifted off into a little world of my own, however, I did keep getting distracted by George thinking he was a drummer playing along to one of his tracks. The journey seemed to be taking forever, I shut my eyes and drifted off into a sleep. 

"MEGAN, MEGAN......HEY!"

I felt a pillow hit me over the face.

"What?!?" I replied, opening my eyes.

"WE'RE HERE!!" George shouted.

I looked out of the window to see a guy in Chino's and a hoodie waving at us.

We picked up our luggage and got off the train. The guy ran to meet us.

"George! how you doing mate?"

They hugged. Awkwardly standing there, I waited for George to introduce me. Jaymi looked over at me.

"Meg" I said putting my hand out.

"I know you, you wished us good luck at the audition, we've heard so much about you, come here!" He replied, pulling me into a hug.

Being the gentleman he is, he picked up my bags and led them to the car. As we got into the car and made our way to the house I saw the memories I'd had as a kid. We drove past the school where I left and where I first met JJ. I wondered if he was here or if i'd meet him. I wonder if he ever regretted what he did. After a 15 minute journey, Jaymi pulled up at the house. I saw how amazing and different it looked. The black gates closed and he parked the car. Getting out, I saw the muscular guy looking out of the window really excited. I grabbed my cases from the boot, took a deep breath and followed George into the house. It was incredible, everything had changed. The living room and the kitchen looked so modern, not like it was when we left. I dumped my bags at the bottom of the stairs and headed into the living room. 

"George mate!! Missed you" Said the muscular guy.

"Missed you too buddy" George replied.

"And you must be Meg, I'm Josh" He said, pulling me in for a hug.

"Pleased to meet you" I replied.

I still couldn't find the third member.  

"JJ, get out here! George is here" Jaymi shouted into the kitchen.

Wait what? JJ? It couldn't be, could it?

He walked out of the kitchen in his jeans and  a hoodie. It didn't look like JJ, I must be hallucinating. We stood opposite each other staring at each other, what was happening?. 

"Earth to Meg, hello??" Waved Josh in front of my face.

"Meg??" JJ asked.

"JJ??" I replied.

"It can't be....can it??"

I pulled my necklace from under my t-shirt and he pulled his watch out. I bought him a watch for his birthday and he always promised me that he would never take it off. It proved to me that he hadn't. I could feel my tears coming along. I couldn't decide if I was happy or angry.  

"I can feel some awkwardness.." said Jaymi breaking the silence.

"Yeah...I think I should go and unpack" I said, running out of the room.

I grabbed my case and ran upstairs. As I walked out I heard JJ sigh. I ran into my room, shut the door and started to cry. I heard a knock on the door. 

"Meg, Meg are you ok love??" asked Jaymi.

"I'm fine Jaymi, I'm sorry, I'm just unpacking, I'll be down soon" 

I heard him go down stairs. Right, Meg, calm down, go unpack and go for a walk. So that's what I decided to do.

Walking downstairs and into the living room, I could hear the boys singing, they sounded amazing. George was playing his guitar and the boys voices just sounded like they belonged.

"I'm going for a walk guys" I said.

"Want me to come with you?" asked Josh. 

"No, thankyou" I replied walking out of the door.

I made my way down to the café where me and JJ went as a child and called for a cup of coffee to think about things. I stayed for a while, so long I had two cups of coffee. I walked outside to see it was 4pm and thought I'd take a trip to the park. I walked along the side roads and down the path. I felt the summer sun hit my face. It felt beautiful. I walked past the boating lake where JJ and I one went in a boat and he pushed me into the pond so I tipped the boat up. I began to laugh to myself. I decided to go and sit by the fountain. There were a lot of memories here. I relaxed with the sun beaming on my face. Rummaging in my back, I pulled out my song book. One thing you didn't know about me was that I really like to write songs and George think's i'm good at it. I love to sing but I never let anyone hear. I loved it here, I didn't want to move. 

"I thought I'd find you here" said a voice behind me.

I turned to see JJ and smiled, I moved over for him to come and sit down.

"Remember when we had our first kiss here??"

When JJ and I were around 11 years old we went on a trip to the park. We had a picnic and then came and sat in this very spot which was when he first kissed me. We were young but it was the best kiss i've ever had.  I laughed.

"Yeah, I remember when you pushed me into that lake over there"

"Hey you dragged me down with you"

We both started to laugh. I looked into his gorgeous eyes and smiled. I got a warm feeling inside.

"I'm sorry" He said.

"Sorry??"

"The way I was when you left, I never stopped thinking about you, I missed you"

"I missed you too"

He put his arm around me.

"You're freezing"

"I am?"

"Here have this, lets get you home"

 He handed me his hoodie and we headed home laughing.

We walked into the house for me to be greeted by a hug from George.

"You found her then?" said Josh.

"Where I said she'd be"

I looked up and stared at JJ.

I was falling in love with him all over again.