Goodbye Doesn't Mean Forgetting

Goodbye Doesn't Mean Forgetting: Part 24

After a day full of interviews in London, it was nice to finally have JJ at home with you. He was back where he belonged although he was down because of the exit from the competition but I expected that. When we arrived home, we were greeted by the smell of JJ's mum's amazing cooking. Walking into the kitchen, we saw two plates of beans on toast and a cup of tea, simple but effective. We rushed to the table like two children, I don't think that we had ever been so glad to have food. Then we went and joined the family in the living room, all surrounding the fire. It was coming up to Christmas and I couldn't wait to spend it with people who mean the world to me. As we sat around, I cuddled into JJ on the sofa, Otea sat in front of the fire and JJ's parents on opposite chairs.

"So what was your favourite song to perform Jamie?" Asked Otea.

"I'd have to say love story" he replied.

I looked up at him and smiled, knowing he had dedicated that song to me made me feel so special. It was getting late so JJ and I decided to go to bed. Otea put her arms up for me to pick her up and take her to be. I carefully picked her up, and walked out of the door with her.

"They'll make a perfect family" JJ's mum whispered.

I smiled and giggled as I walked up the stairs with her. Tucking her into bed, I walked past the bathroom to hear JJ singing to himself. He sounded really good, even though he was only messing around. I walked into our room and saw my phone flashing. I pressed it to see my phone screen of the photo of me and the boys before their first show, it made me laugh and all the memories came rushing back. I had a notification from Olly.

"Excuse me! Come back on Twitter, I'm missing you"

I smiled. I wanted to go back on Twitter, I really did but I was scared. Right stop being silly Megan, you know you can do this and your gonna have to go back on it some time soon so why not make that time now? I took a deep breath and pressed the blue twitter app. It uploaded and I saw all of my tweets, this wasn't so bad after all. I retweeted some tweets from Ella and the boys saying about how much of an amazing night they had. Everything was going well, that was until I clicked on my mentions. The feed was going crazy, tweet after tweet after tweet. The first tweet I saw as

"Why are you even dating JJ you fat ugly bitch?"

I took a deep breath. Come on now Megan, it's not like you weren't expecting that now is it? Scroll through some more.

"I swear when I find you, I will kill you and don't think that I wont you ugly bitch"

"It's obvious JJ wouldn't even look twice at you, he's only with you because he feels sorry for you"

"OMFG How horrible are you, urgh you make me feel sick"

Ok so maybe I wasn't as strong as I first thought. I didn't want JJ to see my crying so I walked over to the balcony windows and opened them, stepping out onto the balcony and crying. I stood looking out at the bright lights of London in the distance sighing. How would you feel knowing that the whole world hated you just because you were in love?. I was freezing but I couldn't go back into the bedroom, I couldn't have JJ seeing me like this. I breathed out, looking like a dragon as I saw my breath float away. I heared the rustling of traffic and the beeping of horns. I felt a warm sensation around my arms and saw JJ put his hoodie around me.

"Babe, your freezing, come on inside"

I sniffed and stayed looking out at the city lights.

"Babe, I'm being serio...wait...are you ok?"

"Yeah, I'm fine, I'm just being silly, ignore me"

"I'm not going to ignore it if my girl friend is crying, what's wrong?"