YOU

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Hope POV

After a about an hour of digging up information about you I've seem to come across comments that draws my attention.

"you look so cute babe"

babe?

who is this person that is calling you babe on your post? is it just your friend? do I have anything to worry about or am I in over my head?

Finch.

Finch is a girl from my school that I have seen around but I've never seen you her hang out.... 

or did I never really pay attention?

Maybe, you two have a fling or something going on.

I don't mean to prey on your life, jo, and I don't want to repeat history but why do I feel like your social media is all an act and you have secrets that I'm waiting to unleash, not to the world. But to me.

This morning you got yourself a strawberry milkshake, seeing as you posted on your Instagram story.Shit! you can see that I've viewed your story.

I know I am a creep but I don't want you thinking that. I quickly exited out of your story and viewed your last post. You tagged your sister in, Lizzie saltzman.

I'm not saying lizzie will be a problem in my mission to win you over but seeing how she is at school its going to be one hell of a ride. Josie when I say that I want to win you over, I don't mean to make it seem like your a award that needs to be won or a prize. You're just something different.

I was digging more into your page to discover more of your family members.

you texted me, on Instagram.

"hey there, look who's being a stalker now"

I smiled a bit. Before I could answer my mom calls for me.

"Hope! THE FOODS READY!" my mom says 

"I'll be done in a minute" I say 

"NO GET DOWN HERE NOW" my mom says

I leave my laptop and phone upstairs, other wise my mom will insist no electronics at the table.

"so, how was school?" my mom say trying to make small conversation

"well, dad asked as soon as I walked in , I'm surprised you didn't hear my answer." I say picking at my food

"mm yes I remember, That's when I asked you why did you come home late and you walked passed me like it was nothing. which we will talk about later" my mom says 

"why can't you be more like dad? you worry about the wrong things. I could be out there selling dope or drinking, or having SEX! LIKE OTHER TEENAGERS but no, I'm a good teenager for my age and out of everything you worry about why I come home an hour and a half late Instead of being thankful that I'm even alive and breathing" I argued with me mom.

I know I could have just answered my mom by saying a simple answer. 'oh mom I'm late because I got detention' but no something inside of me just loves arguing with my mom to prove I'm right. Maybe It's because she wants us to be a normal FUCKING FAMILY! when I use to get bullied for the shit my mom use to do to me at school, and I might haven't fully forgiven my mom for it but what Can i say, I'm just as fucked up as she is so I hope she's not expecting an apology.