As she sat on the corner, she remembers that text conversation with him yesterday.
It's been days since the last talk she had with him. She knows something is bothering him and she feels uneasy about it. Wondering what it would be that he didn't even tried to talk to her for a couple of days already. She's in the middle of her sea of thoughts when she received a text.
From: Babe ❤
Can we talk? Lunch tomorrow, same place.
After reading his message, nervousness enveloped her. Her heart jumps through her shirt as it goes pounding wild. She didn't bother to reply as her thoughts claim her sanity.
She barely slept that night wondering what it would be. Since yesterday, the nervousness, the anxiety never leaves her side as her heart beats louder than the speaker inside the restaurant.
Then he walks in, she waved her hand and he approached her. She flashes that smile that made him fall in love with her years back, trying to hide the uneasiness she felt since yesterday. He sat across her then he sighed loud enough for her to hear. Anxiety was evident to his face as well.
Bothered by his gestures, she broke the silence.
"You okay babe?" she asked.
"..."
"Tell me what's bothering you. I'm all ears"
He sighed once again before meeting her gaze.
"Miks, let's end this"
"What?" surprised, she managed to utter her thoughts.
"Its not you, it's me" he said.
"That's bullsh*t" she said calmly while clenched her jaw.
"Please. Don't make it hard for the two of us. Let me go Mika. Please, just let me go" he said, avoiding her gaze. It pains him to see that she's hurting because of him.
Mika. She laughs in her thoughts. Few years ago it was replaced by "babe". Now, it's Mika once again.
Let me go Mika. Please, just let me go.
Let me go Mika. Please, just let me go.
Let me go Mika. Please, just let me go.
She sat there, stiffened, pain all over her face as she blinked away the tears that about to fall.
"I guess I really don't have a choice" her voice cracking.
She knew, any moment now she will breakdown. She looks at her hands. The ring. Yes, the ring that symbolizes his infinity-and-beyond love for her. She chuckled as she remembers that day when he gave it to her. Now, that's a bullsh*t.
"I deserved someone better" she said as she handed the ring back to him.
She stood up and began pacing her way out. But few pace near where she left him, she turned her back and face him, she flashed him a smile and said "It was nice meeting you, and oh before I forgot, FUCK YOU, BABE". She said popping the "babe".
She's in pain, a throbbing pain that's seems like unbearable but somehow she felt proud of herself. Pride. That's all what's left to her.
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Mika woke up feeling dizzy. She knows it was because of sobbing all night, crying her heart out. Thinking that the pain might go away if she quarantines herself to her emotions.
But, she realized she was wrong. It's been weeks since that incident and today, she'd decided to end her dark days.
She's in the middle of her thought when a pillow hit her.
"Tulala ka na naman. Late ka na uy"
It was her friend, Ara. What a nice way to start right? She chuckled at her thoughts.
"Wala man lang good morning daks" She pouted. And returned the pillow to her friend.
"Ay naku, wag kang pa-cute. Jusko naman ye, kilala na kita. Haha" ara said while chuckling. She's happy to see Mika exchanging antics with her. It's been weeks since she last saw that smile from her. Normally kasi, pag inaasar niya to, she will just walk-out and hide herself under the blanket.
"Daks, ano breakfast? Gutom na me" Mika pouted once again.
"See for yourself. Tss. Dami mong time ah, di ba may class ka?"
"Oh sh*t!!!" Mika slap her head realizing she have errands for today. She rushed to the bathroom and prepared herself.
As Mika stares in front of the mirror, she can't help but to pity herself. She looks miserable. Blood-shot eyes, luggage-like eyebags, messy hair and super pail skin. But today, she'll try to bring back her usual self and move-on. "Move on na Miks" she told herself.
Mika was late in her first class. Luckily, their prof has meeting with the faculty earlier and late in class as well. She was sitted beside cams and cienne that has scrutinizing eyes on her.
"Kung nakakapatay lang ang titig, deads na me kanina pa" mika said out of the blue then turned her gaze to twins.
"Something's up kasi eh. Parang iba ka today" cienne utter.
"Naku naku, inspired ka ba ye?" That was cams.
Mika laughs. Inspired to move-on, yes.
"Maganda lang gising ko that's why" mika replied.
"I smell something. Move-on na ba kay K..."
"Issue kayo. Kaloka" Mika didn't let her friend finished her words. Maririnig niya na naman yung pangalan na yun. She sighed.
Its almost evening when her classes ended. And since kakatapos lang ng season, they have a 3 weeks break from a monster-like training.
It was a dreadful day for Mika so she decided to stroll around. She went to mall all by herself planning to have a "me-time" session.
She's busy looking for a particular design of shoes when she heard someone calling her name. She looked up to see who it was and it surprised her to see it was dani with her friends.
"Ate mika!"
"Oh dan, what are you doing here"
"Hang-out lang with friends. Who's with you po? Come with us na lang. I have a lot of chika about djp"
"May choice pa ba ko? Ikaw talaga. Haha" Mika said.
They decided to watch a movie and eat out for dinner. While waiting for their orders to arrived, dani and her friends ask for photo with mika. And talked about stuffs and all.
"Ate mika thank you for tonight. Iinggitin ko talaga si kuya thirdy about this. Haha Anyway po, bakit mag-isa lang kayo? San po si kuya Kris?" Dani said while on their way to parking area.
"Maliit na bagay dan. Next time ulit okay? And si Kris? Sino yun? Joke. Break na kami." She smiled at dani.
"OMG! Really? Yesss"
"Ay maka-yes naman. Kaloka"
"Ooops, sorry po. Naexcite lang" dani said giving mika a peace sign.
She just chuckled. Ang kulit lang talaga ni dani. Haha. She bade her goodbye and decided to go back to dorm as well.
Getting there miks. Baby-steps on moving on and you're finally over with him. She thought to herself.
